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This Week In Anna 3: brain sucks soz

Added 2018-02-11 16:15:55 +0000 UTC

Welp, this is going to be the first barren week of many. I mean, I always knew that these were going to happen sometimes when I started this, but it's still painful to dump a big pile of nothing on my patrons. My brain is a multi-layered cocktail of various disorders and diseases, which makes every single aspect of my life far harder than it should be. Hell, even if you only take the medically diagnosed things like depression and autism, it's hard enough, but there's no doubt some anxiety disorders and maybe bipolar type II.

Something that's somehow even more painful is the fact that I had to abandon a commission because it was flat-out too difficult for me to write. I hate doing this, but it turns out the reason I only write short things is because I literally can't write anything longer. Even just something 5k words long is too much for me, the difficulty of planning and writing it grows quadratically. That really throws a wrench in any plans I had to write actual books at some point, doesn't it?

I don't know when I'll start writing again. I'm currently at the "crying myself to sleep" stage of my cycling depression, so we'll see what ends up happening.