Busy bee

We are back with a little black-and-white series taken by @rawkrtvnmd. The past days were super busy and also kind of exhausting: Chris left for India and I visited my parents where I'm going to stay for the next week, so loads of packing and trying not to forget anything. I also had a shooting on Thursday, Friday, and today (Saturday), and even though I enjoy standing in front of the camera, I'm happy that I'm getting a break now. All three shootings were very different - one was in the Schwanheimer Dünen, one was at a barrage, and one was in a studio with varying degrees of clothing (I'm honestly thrilled that I got to shoot in some clothes, and I definitely want to explore more street style!). It's so weird, but I feel the least comfortable in lingerie. Like, put me naked in front of a camera: all good. Clothes: It's okay, I often feel that they don't look flattering on me. Lingerie: I feel SO awkward, and don't know what to do with myself. A slip is fine, but as soon as it is more (like a bra, stockings, or suspenders I just can't 😂

I had a period where I felt super at ease with my body, but lately, I feel myself slipping again. Often, photoshoots hugely impact the way I view myself, and I discovered that some photographers don't know how to use light in combination with my pale skin. Which leads to me looking like a white surface without any shadows or contours, and that really doesn't look flattering. Even though I know that it's mainly the lighting, I can't help but doubting myself - so I decided that I'm going to be more picky in terms of the photographers I'm working with, but also to continue working on my body image. Oh, and also: Shooting outdoors in summer... not the best idea. I think I've never had that many mosquito bites in my life! 😂