Yuukoro Neoka

[FREE POST] Circling Back to Where It All Began...

Added 2023-06-01 12:00:00 +0000 UTC

Three. That was the number Twitter gave me when I logged in and checked my notification on 28th of May. Having only woken up after a relatively sleepless Saturday, the realization was quite sobering.

I've been doing this for three years now.

"Modeus," June 11th 2020 > https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/82247744

Welled Up Desires

In my adult life, I found myself back into a hole of fetish I've had for most of my life, yet also suppressed for most of the same period... until I found out that there's an entire community dedicated to that almost-unseen kink.

My memory can be a bit unreliable, but I remember that particular night more clearly than other. It was a fine night on May 2020 and I was bantering with friends and sharing lewds. In the middle of it, I realized that there's just not that many underwater lewd material, which I basically represented at the proverbial Knights of the Lewd Table meeting at the time.

Then, a thought crossed my mind: "Wait, what if I do it myself?" I was already drawing for years at that time at a level competent enough to draw lewds myself. The only thing is I never... actually did it.

But what if I do?

"Underwater Fun," October 12th 2021 > https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/93396836

Just The Tip...

At the height of my horniness, I went and scribbled something up. Armed with a then-7 years old graphic tablet and a decent but unpaid laptop, I drew my first bare breasts. Then, a penis, guided by the incredibly helpful tutorial from an artist called Doxy (no, I did not reference my own penis - I'm a bubble, I don't have one!). As I went on with the sketch, it slowly dawned on me that I just went ahead and made my first lewd ever.

The experience was... incredible. I was always that type of artist who are - let's just say, seasonal. One period I'd draw like a machine, and the next I'd be struggling to summon the will to just draw a line.

What I found was that drawing lewds (especially when I was super horny) has this "feature" that enables me to sort of repurpose sheer horniness into willpower to draw. I was able to draw *something* at my lowest point of energy thanks to it.

I would go on and invent the running gag of "Boner Power," which are incredible willpower summoned at moments of great arousal.

A good friend who was also big into underwater fetish at the time went crazy (in a flattering way) because I dunked their waifu. The other members of Knights of the Lewd Tables was intrigued, and some also sketched theirs. When all is said and done, the night eventually shaped into a more memorable one. But I'm not a man (bubble) who'd be content with just that, no.

Not only was I going to finish it, I'm going to post it online too.

"Ina's back 🙏🙏," July 4th 2022 > https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/99490014

Threshold Crossed

Posting the hot potato I just created posed a slight problem: it was clearly way too spicy for my main account at the time, so naturally I'd have to make a new one.

How do you... go about naming things? People, places, terminologies, characters.

New Twitter account handle.

There are many ways - you can go a bit sophisticated and try deriving it from Latin. Make one that are obvious and thematic, like Billy Butcher. Conjure fancy term derived from your non-Anglosphere native language that may as well be alien to the English-speaking world.

There are many choices. However choice paralysis is a thing and I'm especially vulnerable to that. Deciding on just one name may take hours if not days doing all the research. I just wanted to post my lewd drawing, goddammit!

So I opted to invoke the K.I.S.S. - Keep It Simple, Stupid! I racked my brain a bit for anything immediate which I could turn into a name, and I would eventually end up with this @YukoroNeoka handle of mine, which had amusingly led a few people to believe that I'm Japanese (I would immediately clarify that I'm not each time).

By the way, you might remember that 2020 was the year when VTubers really took off. If you read my name repeatedly, you can figure out my favorite VTubers at the time :)

"Ayula in White Bunnysuit," March 18th 2023 > https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/106328384

Homebound

The deed was done and posted. I wasn't quite a lewd artist at the time, but I've finally broke my egg, as they say.

The reception was... quite amazing. You see, despite having been drawing for a while I'd struggle to break 10 likes on... well, anywhere. But that first drawing broke 40 easily.

By the second drawing I posted, someone asked me for a commission. It took me work in posting and re-posting my commission sheet on my main account at the time to perhaps get one commission and on this new account someone just... came. Of course I took it. It was the first of many.

People came and went, but some stayed. I would gain some fans - a term I'm honestly still hesitant to use today, but would be simply inconceivable for me to have one on my main account at the time. These people helped me realize that the thing I wanted wasn't thousands likes, but comrades. Friends. People to share things I like with and just talk to, even if I don't really talk much to begin with (introvert problems, this is...).

In terms of likes, I haven't really advanced that much consistently since then, but it became known to me how it is like to just feel fulfilled that I just don't really care about it anymore. I mean, getting a lot of likes is still great, but I was no longer tearing my hair out over it.

I would eventually say goodbye to an old friend, at least for the time being, as I made this my main account.

Commissions, drawings, and life had continued since then. My drawings improved, I matured a little (I think), and got a job, all of which intricately tied to that one decision to draw lewd and post it, though it's not without its drawbacks. For one, I can't show my drawings to my parents...

But anyway, all is well and good for the time being, despite all the going-ons on this world. Gotta remember and uh... stop and smell the roses, as they say. Y'know, take it real easy.

So anyway, I've went ahead and redraw the first piece on this account, for shits and giggles. And also to see how much I've improved!