Tethered (Semi-NSFW)

The disclaimer is just in case your workplace is uptight about the female form.. and so much more. Have you ever felt.. tied to technology? Like my last e-mail that (despite the intent of sending only once) Patreon fired the same message to you over an over. I apologize for this. But that's not why I'm writing to you. You see, a few days ago while completely without electricity - I did feel truly... powerless. Seriously, I couldn't help but think: ~ "What essential Tweets am I missing because I have no internet?" ~ "What are my Patreon buddies thinking/feeling/commenting/writing right now?" Checking up on you is completely normal, since I care for our little community very much. However, I never thought I'd write the words "essential" and "Tweet" in the same sentence. (hashtag wtf) My inbox is chocked-full of things I should probably read, but I have too much anxiety about it. Anxiety. I may have to reschedule the live stream again, and I feel guilty about this. Guilt. These serious emotions have grown, stemming from nothing more than mouse and keyboard clicks. For instance, I'm not even sure if this post will get to you - and that freaks me out. I can't believe there was a time in our lives where waiting days (even weeks) for a reply was normal and did not have any negative connotations in society. So I ask you - How often do you hit that refresh button on your e-mail per week? What about per day... per hour? How quickly do you reply when someone writes? Calls, texts, IMs, e-mails, Hangouts, they are all saying "I WANT YOU AVAILABLE INSTANTLY." Do you consent to this? The once optional devices that helped aid in making connections, now makes me feel powerless when I am without them. Am I the only one who feels like this? This photo is one of many I'll be sending. I think it really conveys what it's like as a human... who works with more computers than other humans. Tethered. I'm going to be in temporary housing again for less than a week while I load up my car in San Francisco, making the final drive to my new life in Seattle over the weekend. (yay!) ~~~ > tl;dr - we have no patience anymore and we have evolved into cyborg-Twittering machines.. but is this a good thing? I still have to deal with these undiagnosed health issues, first and foremost. I really hope you'll be there once I arrive, unpack and finally settle into my office studio. Thanks so much for being patient. I miss musing about all our little geeky idiosyncrasies. :-) Above all, I miss you! Love and Light, Niki