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Hey hey!

Soo!! How have you all been? I hope spring is making things a little bit easier and brighter for you.

This is a process GIF of my recent painting, I used to pass by this place every day in Morocco, I love the books and the colors and everything about it so I tried to paint it using some refs I took with what appears to be a calculator because that quality is… something.

I want to rant a bit today, I love ranting these days I’m not sure why, hmm I’m probably just getting old…Anyway, I’m sure I keep saying this all the time on Patreon but I have been really struggling to find motivation to draw anything personal, I.just. don’t. want. to. do. it. So I decided to let myself rest, maybe it's burn out, maybe I need new inspiration. Then I’d come back again, and my feelings wouldn’t change... And at this point I’m worried if I’ll ever love drawing like I used to.

Recently I got a chance to ask a few super cool artists about their motivation, and a few of them had pretty similar answers, one of them said something along the lines of: well I’m not going to lie to you I don’t always stay motivated, but if you work on something that you believe in, that’s going to be your motivation, you need to find your mission. Your mission can’t be something like I want to be super famous, or I want to work for X company, because those things fade away and don’t feel fulfilling on the long term; They said that their own mission was to lift up marginalized voices in the creative industry and help them grow and shine. So I’m like, that is just so cool, and so inspiring… now what the hell is my mission? I just want to draw pretty pictures and be as free as a butterfly :( and folks, I haven’t found an answer for that yet, that’s where I am today, and that’s okay.

Hmmm one reason why I’m saying all these things is that I usually share only the perfect result, because well, that’s what I want people to see. But I know that people sharing their struggles always helped me in my own situation. Whether by providing new insight or just comfort, making me feel like hey, I’m going through something similar. Mmm I’m not sure my rants would be of any help, but I hope they are one way or another.

End of rant.

Thank you so much for being here with me today! I love you and I hope your days are filled with joy. Stay beautiful, get some sunlight, even if you can only stick your head out of the window for 5 minutes.

Sending you 3 boats full of love <3333