About to cut most of the gubbins in here

Way too anxious/sick to explain in detail, I have to do it and then turn off the internet for a bit. I did post a video explaining the trauma connection to Octavius that I'm basically finally admitting to myself, nothing specific has happened to cause this, I'm just so tired of pretending I can do this just because I *should* be able to do this. I'm not capable of being a consistent content creator, so I'm drawing a line under that after about three years of flailing and now looking to accommodate my mental illness rather than fight it. I'm so sorry for failing you, you've been nothing but patient. 

I'm going to cut down to two tiers and on a per-video basis, I need to accept I'm not capable of an output acceptable for your support. I will keep up with the Twitch channel but as you know I'm not a character on there, I'm me and my rats.

I also got a distinction in my Master's degree - which is exciting because it means I feel like I can do more than just complain about crap games (although I do genuinely love doing that). I am in the process of writing the book which was funded, feeling much better about my writing.

If you've already been charged for this month and a higher tier, please contact Patreon support in cancelling it, as I haven't withdrawn pledges yet and Patreon yanks them on the 5th I think.

I can't express how amazing you are. I would never even be in a position of MH recovery if it wasn't for the rollercoaster of a journey Octavius has been - my viewers have supported me in every way. You've lifted me up when I was down, called me out when I really needed to be called out, and made me realise that I have value enough just as Sarah and don't *need* Octavius any more. To be honest, I never REALLY needed her, just thought I did.

I will keep you updated on what I decide to do with the YT channel

Thank you

EDIT: Apparently I can't change over to per creation. I've sent an email to support and see what I can do, but I already feel way more comfortable with the lower tiers. Those of you who have supported me at higher levels all this time, I've never been able to supply you with content you deserve but I did always intend to. But the proof is in the pudding as they say, and I'm so grateful but just too embarrassed. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.