Finding the Light within the Inner Reflections

As I have recently expressed, I have been going through a very unexpected low point in my life. It has affected not only heart, body and mind... it also has affected my ability to be as steadfast with my career and it has potentially damaged close friendships. 

It is hard to see the slow burn of your life around when you are so absorbed into trying to save what is killing you. 

I have been taking what feels like the needed amount of time to reflect and try to find the lessons within these experiences. To embrace the pain that is has caused me so that I can come out better on the other side. I'll be damned if I go through such a life changing hardship and come out a lesser version of myself. 

My hope is that I have grown and will continue to take the steps to grow. That I will see my faults and find ways to correct them. For those who I have unintentional caused pain, that I can mend those friendships. That my character strengthens and humility expands. 

I also will focus on growing in knowing my own worth and never allowing myself to fall short to a false love. 

I have decided to dedicate this next year into really diving deep in self love... which isnt always a beautiful process... but will result in a beautiful outcome. 

I will use my art to express all part of my life and I will become even more proud of who I am . I will begin to live a life where I am unapologetically me. 

I will be honest about who I am, what I want in life and never push my truest self down. I will aim to be more vulnerable without letting go of my boundaries. 

I will never again allow someone to say I'm a dishonest person... as I will be the most transparent about who I am. 

One thing I have really started to learn and process: 

Always be who you are to the fullest and don't try to hide those things out for fear of not being loved by someone (or those) that you love... if they don't love who you are, sooner or later they will depart from your life. So its better to know if they will stay or go sooner than it is later. Nothing will change that result... the result will always be the same. Its just a matter of time. 

These are alot of thoughts without much explanation. 

Thank you for your private messages, comments on posts and continued support! 

I promise there will be more exciting sets and posts coming soon! 

Though I have been in a low.... I've had soooo many highs to share and will continue to experience :D

Looking for the light..... Lumen <3

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