[Esc] reality

on life and photography

"Now this is a story all about how..." it's been 35 hours and the long anticipated Cyberpunk video is exactly 57% rendered. Woe is me! In another day and a half, I may be able to publish the ...

⛥September Download⛥

I'm happy to see you liked my stone massage video so much! It makes me want to make more spa videos. I don't think I'll ever stop making spa videos. Spa ASMR is always a winner. If you have ideas for ...

Outtakes - You And Me Forever

Now that the new camera is "broken in", I'm excited to see how it performs in the notorious blue lighting of the Cyberpunk bar. I want to reshoot the first part tonight (I just consider the accidental...

You And Me Forever.

"Share what's new in your world." ... uhhhh, this? 

I finally finished the first video ever filmed (and published) with my new Sony α7s - It took me a while to film and edit all the parts and ...

teaser

May I introduce the new and improved video quality... Well, almost. I'm still working on the configuration. But here's some of what you can expect for the future of [Esc] reality.

This video is just...

Outtakes - August

Thanks for making me smile  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)  inappropriate emoji to hide embarrassment 

trying and failing and trying some more

Look, I still exist!

I'm sorry, I feel like such a failure. There's no conceivable way I can finish the cyberpunk video this month. It'll likely come out within like a week, though. I'm trying and t...

⛥August Live Chat⛥

Thank you guys for tuning in! Dirty Flirty Fran is gonna crawl back in bed to give her dying uterus a comfortable journey to the otherworld.

Taking [Esc] reality to the next level

Sepember is coming on so let's talk about what's coming this fall.

This is what's coming this fall....

⛥August Q&A⛥

I've been taking valerian root and I feel nothing. Nothing but restlessness. So since Jack is getting up in about an hour anyway, I decided to use that time to answer some of your lovely questions thi...

Soft Singing and Close Up Whispering // Alternative Music

This, uhh... Is not your typical lullaby? But for those who missed my singing, I am performing - ever so softly and breathy - in order: Anesthesia (Type O Negative), Green Man (Type O Negative), Burn ...

complex ptsd blog

Dying in a hole. 

This is a glimpse into an aspect of my life that no one sees. The thing I could never get through to anyone. 

The room is dim. I've spent the past 17 hours in d...

⛥August Extras⛥

This month, you wanted to hear what I think about all your signs. Please don't hold it against me if I don't have a lot of nice things to say about your sign (Virgo). I don't discriminate against anyo...

⛥August Download⛥

Just your friendly bonus content spam for my lovely patrons =D Here's your highest voted video from July as a HQ mp3 download! It only took me searching through 10 different converters to find one tha...

☯️ Hot Stone Massage Experience ☯️

It is my pleasure to give you this soothing, balancing, tingly treatment of unparalleled relaxation. If I sound confident that you will enjoy this one, it's because I am. I'm quality checking it right...

Skirts and Baileys

So I ordered a bunch of skirts to try on. Spoiler alert, none of them fit. But I got some amazing fabric sounds, crinkling and more out of it. It honestly took more time to clear the floor space to be...

Casual Mixology

Before there was a livestream, there was a prototype of a mixology video. I ended up hating the fuck out of it because of the setting, lacking ingredients and noise. This one is still noisy, of course...

⛥July Q&A⛥

I should have specified that "life's great questions" was a joke lol. Regardless, let's roll out your deep and meaningful questions this beautifully muted Sunday afternoon with my fresh iced coffee wh...

starting again

As I've hinted on a little bit, I've spent the past week in recovery from a mental breakdown. Nothing acutely outwardly awful happened, I'm just weak and can't handle stress - at all. No...

⛥July Live Chat⛥

The drinks we made:

Cookie Cloud

1/4 cup Baileys
1 tsp chocolate chip cookie syrup
1 tbsp brown rum
1/2 tbsp cacao&hazelnut liqueur
1/4 cup milk

Shake with i...

⛥July Extras⛥

You wanted to see me going about my day being a real person and I tried my best to capture a more or less average day. That being said, I feel 2018-07-20 15:14:16 +0000 UTC View Post

⛥July Download⛥

You've got me figured out, haven't you? You know that if you can get multiple videos in a tie, you get multiple downloads. I have underestimated how fast you sneaky kitties learn! There you go, your h...

Patching You Up ❤️

For anyone who has ever taken a blade to their own body. 

I've been clean for at least 7 months. I've fought the urge to self-harm countless times since the last time, which I ...

tender moments

"How's your next thing coming?" - Always such appropriate suggestions, Patreon. This photo is from an attempted outdoor shoot that I had to toss cause people. I was smart enough to shoot the thumbnail...

Caring Friend Explains [ASMR]

I have a dream... No, that's literally how this beast of a video came about, guys, I dreamt about doing this and thought it was so funny and original, couldn't contain my amusement, t...

cat food 2018

Today I made some progress with the rewards. I had errands in the morning and afterwards had my carer take me to a pet supply store to keep my end of the deal. Thanks to your awesomeness and genero...

⛧EMP⛧ Try-On Haul

Edit: I made some little changes to the video. I tried to up the brightness just during some parts where I'm showing off the clothing in 2018-07-07 02:01:00 +0000 UTC View Post

life and medical appointments

"Tell your patrons what you're working on." - How did you know that's what I was going to start with?!

June, the month of painful medical procedures, I'm so glad you are gone. 2018-07-04 16:56:35 +0000 UTC View Post