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[TIER 10] IATL: Chapter 1 (part 2)

Warning for prostitution, forced prostitution of minor (barely legal, almost 18), rape, violence, drug abuse and killings.

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Chase shakes his head in resigned embarrassment. He had made a fool out of himself in front of Gabriel. He squeezes his eyes tight in shame. Did he actually ask him for advice on how to prepare for a gangbang? God, he wants to hide his face and never let it out into the open again. He'd totally made it up too. Lucas hadn't even told him to speak to Gabriel.

When Chase found out that he'll be doing the session tonight with Gabriel, he thought he might puke a little. He was so nervous. The reason being is that he's nursing a crush the size of Texas on the guy. Ever since he came to Lawrence two months ago and started school at Lawrence High.

He had seen Gabriel around school with his too blue eyes and messy hair. He would fit right in with the mysterious broody type yet his sadness seems real. Too real. Chase just can’t put his finger on what it was. Gabriel intrigued him. And he’s pretty to look at too. Every English and Biology lesson was spent surreptitiously watching him. The dude is often alone, and he keeps mostly to himself.

Chase just thought he might be shy or something, but then he noticed the bruises. It wasn't exactly like a neon sign, in fact, it's subtle. If Chase hadn't been stalking or staring at him as much as he had, he probably wouldn't have noticed.

Gabriel always wore loose fitting sweaters to school. Which isn't abnormal. It was winter after all. But sometimes, the too big sweater collar would move, and Chase noticed the hand shaped bruises around his neck. At first he was shocked. Part of him wanted to ask, help but another part of him was unsure. He didn't know what to do or what to say so he chose the ignorant way out. He kept quiet.

The bruises continued to show up but not frequently. They don't seem to be the bad kind of injuries either. Sometimes, they looked like hickeys. Other times, rope burns. Maybe Gabriel just has a kinky sex life. Except one day, he saw Gabriel limped out of a van. He looked like shit. A man, whom Chase now knows as Lucas, helped him out. He saw him kiss Gabriel on the lips and felt his heart soared and plummeted at the same time.

Gabriel is gay! But he also has a boyfriend. Who probably was the one marking him. And judging from the way Gabriel’s walking, fucked his brains out Chase thought, burning with jealous rage. At least, that’s what he imagined happened at the time. How was he to guess the truth?

Then of course, things had gone to shit. His dad didn't come home. He was away for almost a month. The rent was coming up. There was no money left. The food in the cupboard was dwindling. Towards the end, it had gotten so bad that Chase had to go out and steal because it's been two days since they'd last eaten. It was just his luck that on his second attempt, he got caught.

The whole story came out then. Social services came and dragged them out of their house and then they had accused dad of negligence. When Chase tried denying, they told him that he'd taken off. They had seen many cases like this before. Chase wanted to tell them bullshit. They don’t know his dad. They don’t know his reasons for leaving. He was not a flight risk no matter what they said. He always came home.

Something must have happened. He found something or- someone found him. Chase tried to file a missing person report but all his attempts were ignored. They don’t believe that his dad was missing. He was not there because he wanted to not because someone made him.

Next thing he knew, he was thrown into this hell hole. That was three weeks ago and everything about Gabriel made sense then. The fact that he never made eye contact, always staring at the ground and flinched when someone got close. Chase was surprised to see him at the home. And Lucas. He didn’t know Gabriel was an orphan. Or that Lucas was responsible for him. How is it ethical to sleep with your charges? It’s not. Frankly, the group home gave him the creep the moment he stepped into the threshold. Something was definitely off.

At least, he got Sam with him. He was so afraid social services would separate them. Sam's still young. He has a higher chance of adoption. But Chase's been told that it differs per case. In theirs, it was in Sam’s best interest to be with family.

On second thought, though maybe Sam would be better off someplace else. Because what happened behind closed doors at the group home is an atrocity. The first night he was there, he overheard a conversation between Lucas and Gabriel. The gist of it was enough to clue him in on what's happening. That same night he had heard the moans and beds creaking throughout the home. His heart burned when he saw the old farts exiting Gabriel's room. Moments later, Gabriel limped out, his head bowed, and he saw the marks on him. The bruises. And fuck it all.

Not two days later, Lucas had forced him into the scene. Like hell. He fought with everything he had. He punched and kicked like how dad taught him, but it was pointless. He only managed to stem off his fate for another two days before a man named Alastair came and turned his life into a living hell. That night, he was raped for the first time. And it wasn't by that one man either. He had brought along his 'friends' and they had all taken a turn with him like he was some kind of meat.

His back tingles with phantom pain as he thinks about it. What happened next was something he rather forgets. He sighs and closes his eyes. How is he going to survive the night with Gabriel right there with him? It's been two months now. A month since he figured out Gabriel is with Lucas, and yet, his crush had not dimmed in the slightest. He's hopeless. Chase bangs his head twice on the door to his room, groaning frustratedly before he lets himself in.

[TIER 10] IATL: Chapter 1 (part 1)

Warning for prostitution, forced prostitution of minor (barely legal, almost 18), rape, violence, drug abuse and killings.

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"It's noon, Gabriel."

At the sound of the voice, Gabriel lets out a muffled groan and shifts from his sleeping position in bed. In his sleep muddled state, he starts to register how sore his body is. The muscles on his arms and thighs throb unpleasantly. He turns his head to the side and blinks against the sunlight streaming in through the window above his bed.

Squinting, he blinks the sleep out of his eyes. Memories from the day before seep into his awareness, trickling into his consciousness. Shame and humiliation follow next in quick succession. He wants to blot out the reminders of last night, but it seems like his body has different ideas, throbbing and aching in places he never knew a person could ache. The bed dips as someone sits beside him.

Long fingers grip the band of his loose white boxer and peels it down the globe of his ass. He stills as the fingers spread his asscheeks apart. There's an approving hum before the fingers are removed and his boxers snap back into place. Very much awake now, he turns around to piercing blue eyes. Light blonde hair shines like a halo around his handsome face in the bright sunlight. Lucas. True to his name, he is as beautiful as the angel with a heart as cold as ice. He is also the man Gabriel has fallen in love with. And the person to break his heart time and time again.

"You look less swollen now. In a few hours, you'll be as good as new," he says, indicating the soothing gel he had applied on Gabriel last night. Gabriel had been too out of it to do anything other than to lie in bed, hurting and spent while Lucas praised and fussed over him. Lucas brushes the side of his face with the back of his fingers. Gabriel leans into the touch. During moments like this, he can pretend that everything is fine, and that he's in a normal relationship with his boyfriend.

"Now, go and take a shower. You have a long night ahead of you," Lucas says as he slaps his thigh and stands.

Just like that, the warm bubble he's wrapped himself in bursts, and Gabriel is thrown back into reality. He feels cold despite still lying in bed in a tangle of sheets. The side of his thigh that had been pressed against Lucas's aches at the loss of contact as the man moves away. Gabriel forces himself to stay still, ignoring the urge to reach out as Lucas walks back out the room, leaving the door ajar. Sighing, he slumps back into bed and stares at the now familiar patch of plaster above his bed.

He misses Lucas. Misses the man he first met and fell in love with when he arrived at the home three months ago. The man who showered him with attention and gave him solid ground when he was lost. The man who promised affection and companionship. Who had charmed his way into his life and captured his heart. Back then, Lucas was sweet and kind. He would pepper him with kisses and gentle touches. Tell him how beautiful his eyes are as he takes Gabriel apart.

Gabriel had known he's bisexual when he was thirteen and found himself appreciating the male and female form. The way his eyes would linger for a moment too long at the way a jeans would hang low on a set of lean hips. Or the way a t-shirt is stretched too tight across a broad chest or full bosoms. Life would be much easier if he focuses his attraction to girls, but when he was fifteen, he was crushing hard on his science project partner. A sweet boy by the name of Andrew.

Gabriel never told anyone about his crush, not even his father, Emmanuel Ward or his older brother, Raphael. Judging by their names alone, it’s safe to say that their father was a religious man.

A knock on the door pulls him out of his reverie. He looks up to see Chase, all six feet of him, standing awkwardly by his door. He catches Chase's emerald green eyes roam down his torso. When they stop at his boxers, his face turns pink before his eyes fly back up to Gabriel's face. He clears his throat, looking flustered. Gabriel hides a smile.

He had only known Chase for three weeks when he moved into the home with his six years old younger brother, Sam. They are the same age, and they shared a few classes together though he can't remember noticing Chase before. Gabriel lacks the social skill that allows him to blend in easily. He is pretty much a loner at school. At home, the others make an effort to avoid him. He had thought Chase would want the same, so he kept his distance. He tilts his head now, curious as to why Chase is standing in his doorway, looking three shades of embarrassed.

"Hey, Gabe."

His voice is young and boyish like it has not yet fully matured. A perfect contrast to his own low baritone that sounds years beyond his age. Chase is also the only one to call him Gabe. He wonders why no one thought of that before. It seems so natural. Simple. And he likes the sound of it. He gives Chase a small smile.

"Hello, Chase."

Chase coughs a little, the tip of his ear turning a light shade of red. "Um... I don't know if Lucas told you this already, but I will be coming along with you tonight."

"Oh?" Gabriel is surprised. This is news to him. He always went to Zael's party alone. His heart clenches a little at the thought that Chase is participating as well. Because there isn't a doubt in his mind what Chase's purpose at the club is. Like him, they're the entertainment. Gabriel is used to it but Chase- It's a fate he wishes never to befall anyone else. "I'm so sorry, Chase."

He shrugs. "First time for everything I guess. Hey, at least you'll be there. You're going to look out for me, Gabe?"

Gabriel's eyes widen, and he answers as earnestly as he can. "Of course, Chase. But I hardly have any control over what happens at these clubs-"

"I'm joking," Chase interrupts, smirking a little but with a, Gabriel is reluctant to say, fond expression on his face. People don't look at him fondly. He must have misread Chase's facial connotations.

"Oh," he answers instead.

They stare at each other for a long moment before Chase rubs at his neck. "So, um, do I need to prepare or..." he trails off, his face beet red now. "Look, I don't know what to expect here, and I could use your help- No!" he shouts suddenly, startling Gabriel. "No, I don't need you to umm... No. What I mean is, Lucas asks me to come to you for advice on what to do before we go," he explains.

"I see." He stares at Chase's reddening face and the slump set of his shoulder a while longer before he adds, Well. You need to prep yourself. It also helps if you don't eat hours before we leave and it would be most practical if you give yourself an enema," he advises matter of factly. Chase's face twisted at that. "Gross, dude. I did not need to hear that." Gabriel gives him a deadpan stare. "You asked, Chase. I'm merely providing the information you requested."

Chase lifts his hands in the universal sign of surrender. "Alright, alright. I'm just nervous, okay?" The defensiveness he felt at Chase's reaction disappears. His eyes soften as he tries to reassure him. "I'm sorry you're forced into this, Chase. If it helps, I'll try to take the burn of it tonight."

"Hey, no. Don't do that, Gabe. I know where you've been last night. You must be sore." He stares at Chase, surprised that he would know, but then again the home is small, and it is a pre scheduled thing. He feels a blush heats his face at the thought. He should be used to people knowing what he does by now, but he isn't. The shame lingers.

He is feeling sore and the prospect of tonight is daunting. He hates to think how he would feel after. Unsure of what to say, he keeps quiet.

Chase takes a deep breath and forces a smile. "I'll see you tonight." With that, Chase turns on his heels and walks back down the hallway towards the room he shared with Sam two doors down.

Gabriel sighs, pushing himself out of bed. He winces as the movement pulls a muscle. Ignoring the pain, he grabs a towel, flips it over his shoulder and limps towards the communal shower. The group home has seven occupants. Lucas Kane is the owner and person in charge of the home. He used to be an orphan himself, had stayed in this exact home until he turned eighteen and left. That was eight years ago. He never talks about his time away. Or why he decided to come back to Lawrence six months ago.

When Gabriel first arrived, the others were already here; Tessa Rivera, Anna Milton, and Amelia Richardson. They are 15 and 16 respectively with Amelia being the youngest at eight. Then, of course, came Chase and Sam Reed. The group home isn't large, but it does fit the seven of them comfortably. There are a total of six rooms, four bedrooms, an office and the laundry room. Chase and Sam took over Tessa's room, and she's now bunking with Anna and Amelia.

Gabriel shuffles towards the sink and grabs his toothbrush. When he looks at his reflection in the mirror, he can't help but feel a stab of humiliation. There are dried white crusts at the corner of his mouth. He averts his eyes and focuses on brushing his teeth, washing away the taste from last night. He spits and gurgles then hangs his mouth under the tap, appreciating the fresh cold water as he drinks. He walks across the black tiled floor towards the stall in the corner. Hanging the towel on the peg outside, he pulls off his t-shirt. Stiffly, he steps out of his boxers and throws them into the hamper there.

Stepping inside, he pulls the curtain shut and turns on the shower. He reeks of sex. The cubicle soon fills with steam from the hot water. Gabriel moves under the heavy spray and lets it wash away all the evidence of last night, the stickiness between his buttcheeks and the dried semen on his body and hair. Gabriel Ward is a whore. A party favor. And Lucas is his pimp. The group home is a front for what is actually a whorehouse. Anna, Chase, and Tessa were forced into the lifestyle too. Gabriel doesn't know the gory details, but he heard their cries and witnessed the aftermath. It's one of the reasons the others avoided him.

Because he wasn't forced. In fact, he had submitted willingly. It hurts him to think about it, so he doesn't. Instead, he focuses on fingering his hole, rubbing at the rim gently before pressing a finger inside. He washes himself the best he can before he inserts two more fingers, scissoring himself open. He meant what he said to Chase. It's best to be prepared. He needs to make sure that he can take whatever is thrown at him without tearing or hurting himself because he knows the people at the club wouldn't care if he starts bleeding.

[TIER 2] Banana Milkshake: Table Manners

Getting irritated by eating sounds is actually an illness. It's a thing that exists lol. I'll be updating 3 eps everyday until we catch up and then I'll make update the ones that are not up yet! ^^

[TIER 2] Banana Milkshake: I Love You

People asking you to say 'I love You' in your language is just plain flirting with you, okay? XD

[TIER 2] Banana Milkshake: Introduction

A little cultural comic XD whether you like it or not, you gonna learn some pretty titbits about Southeast Asia and Europe XD 

[TIER 10] It's a Terrible Life: Summary

Lucas Kane is a man with a mysterious past and a mission. He's the supervisor of a group home but he's also a pimp and Gabriel is his personal whore. Gabriel Ward thought he may never find love again, not when he's bartered around and used as party favors. But maybe happiness is not lost when a certain green eyed boy and his six-year-old brother join the home. Unfortunately, fate has other plans. After a brutal assault and the massacre that follows, would they be able to salvage the broken pieces or are they too broken to try?

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This novel includes trigger warnings: prostitution, forced prostitution of minor (barely legal, almost 18), rape, violence, drug abuse and killings. Do not read it if it's not something for you. 

This is a hardcore erotic novel so bear in mind the language is obscene and lewd. Also, this novel does not reflect me as a person at all even though I wrote it. It's like how author who writes about serial killers are not actual serial killers themselves. It's just a fiction. And you all already know I can write some pretty heavy stuff. With how wholesome MWR is, then this is at the other end of the spectrum (think Riku's arc but heavier cause now it's wordy XD)

I'll start updating this novel today and will continue it 3x a week every Friday, Saturday and Sunday!

[ANNOUNCEMENT] Added comic and novel updates!

Hello April! XD

As some of you already know, I have a new comic called Banana Milkshake on Webtoon and Tapas. I'll start to update that comic here on Patreon as well and make it as read in advance on Tier 2 ^^ Hope you all like it ^^

I also have an additional Patreon reward for Tier 10. A novel update 3x a week. The novel is not for the light hearted. If you're here for wholesome MWR content then this isn't for you. I'll always put up a warning disclaimer before the novel update.

I've also updated my intro page ^^ So if you're interested, take a look!

[PREVIEW] MWR NSFW illustration up!

I just want to see Drew tied up in bondage okay? XD

[TIER 7] Bondage Drew

Inspired by Ash, I want to see Drew in ropes XD I think his fair skin would love really good covered in red muahahahahah and a little whip mark does no harm XD

[PREVIEW] MWR canon smut up!

A continuation of how Ash and Bane cope after the revelation of Ash's sexual history in term of the bedroom <3

[TIER 10] MWR: Aftermath

Who else love Ash in bondage? XD And Bane spoiling him is everything uwu

[PREVIEW] MWR up!

Back to our lil angel and devil XD

[TIER 2] MWR: Signs

I don't think there's is anyone who is flawless XD who can actually see Drew having this problem?

[TIER 15] [TIER 20] Incoming!

Sorry for the massive delays but my Feb and March stickers were delayed with Chinese new year and then it got held at customs for like 11 days >.<lol but they're here now so I'm sending out the stuff now! Again, so sorry for the delay! Those who hasn't got January stuff yet will get it in this post as well so don't worry!

[PREVIEW] MWR up!

Who misses these two? ^^

[TIER 2] MWR: Vile Creature

When Southeast Asia is infested with cockroaches >.< And you're just a poor backpacker with limited budget on a trip XD XD XD to those who forgot, after Drew graduate, Drew and Angel took a short break to backpack in Asia ^^

[POLL] Nerd Plushie contribution

Hi all! As you know, with Punk's plushie successful, we're now getting Nerd too! I'm currently in negotiation with Makeship on Nerd's design and would like your opinion on this. Nerd started out with having an inner long sleeve shirt inside his t-shirt. But toward his final year and now, he stopped wearing them (he shows his bare arms now). For the plushie, which form would you like him to have? With the long sleeves or just the t-shirt?

[PREVIEW] MWR up!

After  a long time, I can finally draw Nerd again! <3

[TIER 2] MWR: Long Distance

When you're in a long distance relationship, the level of comfort you varies <3

[PREVIEW] MWR up!

A little more on PunkxNos XD

[TIER 2] MWR: Greater Purpose

Sometimes, you don't need to have a greater purpose to want to do something >.<

[ANNOUNCEMENT] THANK YOU!

Yesterday was the last day for Punk plush campaign, aaaaaand WE MADE IT! We sold a total of 266 Punk plush! So basically there will be 266 little Punk running around in this world hahaha! Thank you so much for the support! I was actually pretty nervous about not making it >.< but we made it and even exceed the 200 minimum order! Thanks to that, we're going to have Nerd plush next! ^^ Heheh he won't come so soon cause it's nice for you all to be able to save for him XD Maybe early May or June XD

Punk plush will be shipped out on 31 May! Look forward to him in your mail! <3 And love him! <3

[TIER 3] [TIER 15] MWR: Love of my Life

Okay, we have Punk and Drew looking this way at their little bottoms, now we gotta have Bane XD with Doggo of course XD This will be this month's postcard! ^^ 

ps: As I mentioned before in the end of the month message, sorry for the delay with the physical rewards! In Feb, chinese new year holiday delays everything >.< so I'm a bit backdated! But don't worry! I'll be sending them all out soon! To those who haven't got January ones too! So sorry for the delay!

[PREVIEW] MWR backstory up!

For the Punk x Ash shippers XD

[TIER 5] MWR: Ice Cold

Have anyone seen this side of Punk yet? o.O

[TIER 20] MWR: Animal Lovers stickers!

This month we have our pet owners <3 Hope you like them! ^^ Are you a dog or cat person? XD

[PREVIEW] NSFW illustration up

Who love some man titties? LMAO *raise hand* especially one like Drews OWO

[TIER 7] Vacay Drew NSFW

Feast your eyes on this ball of muscles XD Drew before he got sunburnt XD dick out and raring to go XD *realistically, they won't be nude outside especially not in an Asian country* lmao*

ps: hope no one opens this without a surrounding check XD XD XD

[PREVIEW] MWR canon smut up!

It's Valentine and we have Punk and Nerd having some smexy time (hint hint: comedic XD)

[TIER 10] MWR: Valentine Tryst

With all the bad news that has been going on, have some lighthearted and dumb smut XD Hope you enjoy it! <3 Take care of yourself!