ENDHAWKS (HOEN) - NSFW
Added 2024-07-24 22:54:44 +0000 UTCAhhhh it was long overdue for me to draw hoen! I've had this idea stuck in my head for a while. There's just something about Enji guiding Hawks by the waist even while he's bottoming 🛐 To quote my own fic:
“I told you, didn’t I? I want everything,” Enji says, searing Keigo with his eyes. “All of you, little bird.”
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Some emotional blabbing, feel free to skip:
This month I'm trying to power through the absolute mess I'm feeling, but it's not easy. I apologize for not being able to draw more. For those who haven't heard, Sasha (TWT @spacenipnops / PTRN SpaceNip), one of my best friends and artistic inspiration, passed away on the 13th. This is the first pic I drew knowing full well she wouldn't be able to see it, give advice about it, or comment, making me feel special like only she could. It's been... a process. From trying to find the will to sit down before my tablet at all, to cleaning it repeatedly because I've been sobbing all over it, let alone decide what to draw in the first place. I wanted to draw my OCs, but that's a can of worms I'm not ready to unlock (hah) yet because Sasha was the only person in my life to know all about my original story. I wanted to draw Sasha's OCs but I still can't bring myself to even open our chat log where she sent me tons of ref pics/excerpts. So I went with endhawks, because that's the thing that years ago led us to talk every single day, and turned friendliness into one of the deepest connections I've ever had the privilege of forming.
Sorry, but I didn't feel like adding colors much. I still hope you can appreciate it.
Thank you for staying by my side and supporting me during all this.
Comments
I am sending you all the hugs!!! I know how hard it is to lose a good friend, but I still can't imagine what you're going through. Time will heal the wound, and we'll always keep her memory alive with our continued love for her. This piece is so good!! The juxtaposition between their sizes is fantastic. Hawks expression is delicious, and Endeavor is tasty!! Thank you so much for this, especially during these hard times.
Diamond
2024-07-27 02:31:32 +0000 UTCOn a separate note I am so sorry for the loss of your dear friend 💞
Sam
2024-07-26 22:09:40 +0000 UTCEvery time I see your Hawks piece I think I drool a little
Sam
2024-07-26 22:08:54 +0000 UTCThis is such a beautiful piece and I am so sorry for your loss 💕 I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through but I'm sure Sasha will always be with you in spirit, cheering you on, and loving you and your art 💗 every time I experience loss I like to think of the quote in Interstellar where they talk about how love transcends all of time and space. Wherever Sasha is, I'm sure she can still feel the love that pours out for her 💗 she was an incredible person and artist and will be dearly missed
GrowBetter1993
2024-07-25 16:18:01 +0000 UTCMi dispiace moltissimo per la tua perdita, non riesco ad immaginare cosa significhi cercare di risollevarsi da un simile dolore, quindi prenditi i tuoi tempi per elaborare tutto e serba nel tuo cuore sempre il ricordo della tua amica e di tutto quello che vi univa ❤️
Miss Hyde
2024-07-25 10:47:15 +0000 UTCI'm so so sorry for your loss ❤️ This piece is absolutely beautiful, thank you for making it and I hope it gave you even a little joy, to be able to make some art again. I cannot imagine what you are going through right now, all I can say is I hope you take all the time and space that you need.
NP93
2024-07-25 09:07:39 +0000 UTCI'm truly sorry for your loss Aira, I can't even begin to imagine your pain. I am on Sasha's Patreon, I was devastated to learn her death, and I thought of you immediately. She was incredibly talented, I loved her art and her stories, I'm incredibly sad she won't get to share more with us. I truly hope the best for you, and I wish you to find joy again in all the things you shared with her ❤️
FleshWeakling
2024-07-25 08:47:39 +0000 UTCThank you so, so much for this comment, all layers of it. You're always so kind to me and I cherish every single word you send my way even if I don't always manage to reply. As I said to other patrons who used to support Sasha too, I promise I'll keep doing my best for her sake as well. I'll try to keep her memory and creativity alive through any means I can. She meant so much to me, to my art journey, and she had so, so many things left to say herself. I won't speak for her but not a day will pass when I won't let our friendship inspire me. She was special like that, my silly muse. I'm glad she was part of your life too, even just a little. Thanks a lot also for appreciating my take on endhawks. These characters are less personal than my OCs, obviously, but I hold such a soft spot for them in my heart, now even more than ever. I'm so happy to hear my art and writing about them makes you this excited. Though BNHA is ending, I'm nowhere near done with them!
Loveisinthe AIRA
2024-07-25 08:18:54 +0000 UTCthis piece is *adorable* Aira... and as others have said, i just know that Sasha would've just LOVED it as well! the size difference... that *huge* hand encompassing Keigo's waist... Hawks' talons in Enji's thigh 💋👌 ...absolutely beautiful. ...and... no. I started to write the rest here, but i've changed my mind and I am going to send you a DM 🫂
Peter Shaw
2024-07-25 06:12:23 +0000 UTCAira I just KNOW Sasha would be absolutely devouring this piece. ♡ Plenty of love going your way, friend. We put so much of ourselves into our online friendships, especially with the folks we share our personal works with. There's a special quality to those worlds/characters that only one other person has seen & loved along with you. Maybe one day you'll be able to navigate this grief in new ways, and pick up some of your or Sasha's OCs and channel some of that love by drawing for yourself (and for Sasha ♡ ). It is always fun to share with us & general fandom, but there's something fulfilling/soul-healing about just creating for yourself, too. I think the best thing I can say is: I feel very touched you've shared this glimpse of your love for Sasha & the inspiration she gave you. We didn't speak often, but I valued her humour & the kindness she showed me when we did. Now, in a somewhat less emotionally soppy vein: I *adore* the size difference in this. Enji's hand engulfing Hawks's waist.... ✧*｡٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و✧*｡ THE THIGH BEING ABOUT THE SAME WIDTH AS HAWKS'S TORSO???? hmfffjfmgmgmh I can just see Hawks coaxing Enji into trying out face-sitting & just gesturing furiously at his face like 'no break it, break it it's fiiiiine~ ♡💦) The way you draw/write Endhawks literally leaves me breathless & giddy. Like kicking my fucken footies excited over the possibilities & ideas that spring up from drooling over your work!! The physical expressions (not just facial expressions, but what their whole bodies are doing/experiencing) is always so incredible. So many lovely little details to pore over & mix into the whole experience. ♡
Aravis
2024-07-25 04:54:20 +0000 UTCMy deep condolences. I had no Idea Sasha passed away. I was such a fan of SpaceNips and this is so sad, I cannot imagine how you and others who knew her closely are mourning. This emotional art is evocative as usual and I hope to one day see more art in honor of her. Love you!
Rashel Izro
2024-07-25 03:20:22 +0000 UTCWhen I heard the news I immediately thought of you 💜 it was such a shock and so heartbreaking for me and I can’t even begin to imagine what you’re going through. She was such a talented and beautiful soul and she will be dearly missed. My heart goes out to you 💜💖
Dandy
2024-07-25 01:27:34 +0000 UTCBeautiful and hot and emotional 🔥❤️ stunning work. I’m so sorry your heart is hurting. Please take care.
Hiro
2024-07-25 00:36:15 +0000 UTCI'm so sorry Aira, she was a wonderful person and I'm pretty sure how I even found your art, ages ago now. Sending you healing 💜
KhajitTink
2024-07-25 00:03:12 +0000 UTCAll my thoughts and love to you. Don’t forget to take care of yourself during this time and remember that Sasha is always with you. ❤️
Melissa Barragan
2024-07-24 23:53:23 +0000 UTCi’m so sorry this loss is so close to you. the whole fandom will miss her, but the spirit of her friendship and kindness will always guide you, even when you feel her absence more than her presence. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Ren
2024-07-24 23:31:32 +0000 UTCBig hug. I’m sorry the grieving process is so rough. The piece is lovely (I have a soft spot for bottom Enji)—and I hope that working on it was at least a little bit cathartic. She’d be glad your artistic spark is still there.
blacknoise
2024-07-24 23:10:16 +0000 UTCI’m sorry for your loss, I can’t imagine how difficult it has been for you these past few days especially when it was so sudden. Please take all the time you need
hotdog
2024-07-24 23:05:46 +0000 UTCAll the love going out for you and so sorry for your loss. I hope you can find strength and joy again in the things you love to do 🧡 your art is amazing as always, love what you do 🫶🏼
Akuji
2024-07-24 23:04:49 +0000 UTCThis is beautiful, Aira. I love all the little details you added. All those scars on both of them, their facial expressions, Enji's prosthetic. And the size diff is just 👌🏻 I am still at a loss for words and I was simply a quiet follower of Sasha. Only met her briefly at DoKomi last year. I'm certain she would have loved this picture.
katycaterpillar
2024-07-24 23:04:32 +0000 UTCThey’re absolutely beautiful. I adore the inspiration behind the piece, and you always manage to make such dynamic poses that feel like they’re in the midst of action. (The claws in his thiiigggghh!! And of course that hand being as wide as Hawks’ WAIST?? Incredible) (And emotions abound) I truly wish you the best in your recovery. What you’re going through is unimaginably unbearable. The only advice I can really give is not to worry yourself about powering through it. I know it can be so difficult to focus on yourself when content creation is a source of income, but this is something you need to feel and be present in fully. You absolutely don’t need to apologize for being inactive. The fact that you made this absolutely stunning piece shows such immense strength. You’re really amazing 💕💖
Kaley
2024-07-24 23:03:04 +0000 UTCI had no idea Sasha had passed away, I'm so sorry for your loss!! Please take all the time you need to grieve, though I doubt you'll ever find time when you won't be grieving that loss.
Laura
2024-07-24 22:58:39 +0000 UTCI ran to Patreon at the notification of Endhawks!!! Your art is so good! I’m sorry to hear about their death, I loved their art as well. If you need to take a break then please do so.
MoistTowelette
2024-07-24 22:55:22 +0000 UTC
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