The Unfortunate Fate of Lion Tamer

ok...so....Lion Tamer. ive been talking about it for over a year and a half. I have over 270 pages of it done and id say about 90% completed. however, upon reflection, I am HIGHLY reluctant to release it for many reasons but ill give you the two biggest; one, its a mess; the art is all over the place. im not saying its bad but its very inconsistent in alot of areas and....well it isnt quality and for me thats kind of embarressing

and two and probably the biggest reason; its really....REALLY...depressing.

I mean tonally. its too far up the ass of deep emotional trauma. i know ive stuffed enough of garys SA past in all ya'lls faces to have enough of that and it gets into areas with the other characters that is honestly really unnecessary. i mean, i have these characters being abused. its horrendous. i mean were talking gary, feng xi (i made of scene of her being beaten with a lead pipe.....does anyone really want that!?), aaron, flashbang. its just a really sad and huge downer of a story.

through the course of making this, I have been working through and going through a lot of personal and very negative emotional baggage and alot of that bled into the story and into the artwork and it really just became an emotional dumping ground. i mean, ive been in a very bad place for a long time and alot of it is reflective in it. its been a hellacious time for me.

HOWEVER...as of lately ive been taking better care of myself, letting go of instances from my past and getting myself back to a more confident and brighter outlook on myself and my life completely (feels good :) ) so now instead of just letting this be a repository for all my negative emotions im approaching this more from the aspect of a fetish enthusiest, a comic fan, a comic artist and i can say without a shadow of a doubt;

this.....sucks.

the last 2 posts of defuser (macromasticon ex mortis, breaking news) i feel is a better reflection of what i want to present; the stories are small, easy to digest, we get straight into the meat and potatoes of why were here; transformations, inflation, giantess, monster girls, you know THE SHIT YOU SIGNED UP FOR lol! i mean at this point, you know the characters, you know enough of their backstory, we can pump the brakes on the lore and get back to the real reason i wanted to make this in the first place.

cuz seriously, who the fuck wants to read a downer ass story just to get to a transformation scene or inflation scene!? by the time you get to it, youre so bummed out its not even worth it! i dont want to do that to you guys! id be fucking pissed to read horrific shit like that!

not to say, im easing on the brutality! i love over the top hardcore violence but if its just there for "shock!" its completely pointless and just takes away from the fun. and thats what i want to do with this; have fun. and i want you guys to have fun too!

now there are, i think, some really cool transformation scenes and moments that i dont want to just shit can so ill be taking the story and dissecting those and reworking them into better, more exciting and not so fucked up story arcs so they arent being served in a big bowl of shit.

this is not a sympathy bait post, i sincerely think this thing is crap. and i dont care if it took me a year and a half to make and yada yada; a shitty product is a shitty product and i have a responsibility to you as my patrons to provide you something worth your time. and i dont want to let my personal issues get in the way of us having a good time.

ive been doing a lot of hurting but now im doing a lot of healing and im ready to start making something we can all look at and enjoy and have a great time with. i love you guys to death for being so loyal and being such great people with your support. you all live rent free in my heart for your generous patronage and im honestly very excited to see where we go from here. love you all

stay fucking brutal!
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