Midnight Thoughts

Hey everyone, almost done with the NYC Christmas episode for its release tomorrow :) Should be up by around noonish, just need to finish up the rest of the audio.

Really wanted to say thank you to those that have stuck with me this year. Don’t think I don’t notice you OG’s , because I do and you all are the only reason I’m still here making this content.

Between the insane amount of money it takes to keep buying the best of the best pro camera gear and traveling to different locations so often - I still haven’t actually made any money on the channel and I continue to put alot of my savings into it to sustain it. But without your support, I would have been forced to quit a long time ago.

To be honest, It’s been a rollercoaster of a year for me. At times I’m convinced that the very next expisode will attract enough people to the patreon and I will actually be able to pay myself a little. And at other times (like now) I start to feel burned out because it’s yet another weekday night/ weekend I’ve spent working for no pay.

There is a lot to be grateful for though, in times like these, I try to think back to all the comments I’ve received both publicly and through private messages. All the people that have have said my content has helped them.

I am grateful that I could make a difference in so many peoples lives. No matter what happens to the channel in the coming year, even if I have to eventually quit because I ran out of savings, I’ll always know I had helped so many along the way, and it was all worth it for that alone.

Anyway, I always keep a strong and happy public image, but I just couldn’t hold back the tears during this moment of weakness tonight and thought I would share. Back to being hopeful for the future. Back to being strong. Together we are strong.