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u know who dis be (sipss coffyee!!!!((me)

Thanks to all of u who supported me this month :) If you bought trad art tis going out in a few days.

Y'all kinda savin my ass thru hard ish... Or, there are days I can lose hope but that doesn't last 4ever with friendship & love. I believe.

Everyone's making some flavor of game these days aren't they? Ofc, myself included.... I remember when lofi beats was this weird niche thing~ then we got study beats! If history doesn't repeat but rhymes, do you think it checks out to say that LOFI SCARY HORROR (etc) games are like the new study beats????? On that note, I'm starting to get into using ArtOfIllusion because I like that they are holdin onto some of the older 3d technique rendering pipelines n that~ blender ofc, arguably one of the best 3d modellers of all time but, they feel like they getting kinda UNreal widdit~ AOI actually gives me authenique gourad and... that make me so *****

I'm sharing with u various things on my computer ofc ~ experiments n that... I'm tryna make a 'vn' again with determination....... I sometimes feel I've made nothing but a fool of myself through my net blabbing but in the end that won't matter. There's so much going thru my head of late, my head is exploding with inspiration and aspiration, so if any of these pics pique yr interest and u want to inquire feel free (not gnna pipe in what its all about)~ i'm still searching ~ but I'm writing scenes, and am still fondling non-linearity~ You know, it's hard and because I'm so solo widdit, my diary verbosity maybe to compensate ~ she's my familiar ~ my diary being the only thing I work with to navigate this complexity ~ if art be a type of war~ ugh they say deception is a big part of it~ i keep thinking abt who are masters of deception and I kinda think the octopus are strong contenders swoon. I have been voraciously musing to blog of late https://hsex.studio/diary ~ I shall be more lenient with Hentai on my blog ~ if you don't like that, this is my kind warning to you~ I don't want to vom on ptron ~ I'm sure I mentioned the diary before, I'm not spreading it publically just so you know. I probably should never use megaphones anyways. THe last thing I want to just say, if you actually take time to read my diary, please know anything I say there abt my VN or art in general is subject to change on a super whim~ ART Instincts > ART Words ... Somedays are good~ somedays are hard~ somedays are psychotic~ somedays are scary ~ somedays are so much love everywhere endless bounds of nature glorious goodness ~ somedays the world's gnna fucking end soon~ and other days are just MEH af lol