I'm having an awful time.
Added 2023-08-29 07:26:40 +0000 UTCWhat the title says. I'm going to take a break from everything until the end of this month. I don't have the desire to interact with anyone. I'll be working quietly. I kindly ask that you don't expect me to post much on my social media or check messages. It's all too much, and I can't handle everything on my own, you know? Thanks to those who were concerned. I'm truly experiencing the consequences of burnout, and finally, I'm finding a bit of peace. Being constantly exposed to pornography (even drawing it) does a lot of harm, you know? My headaches are getting worse and my eyes started to get red in certain areas after extended periods. Recently, a family member came to visit me with their girlfriend, and I almost had a social anxiety attack. My hands were trembling from pretending that everything was fine.This is already too much pressure. I didn't create art for it to feel like a responsibility. It's as if lifting the pencil weighs 22 pounds, and finishing a piece is a herculean task. I'll be drawing quietly and doing other things. I genuinely plead with you, please don't expect much more from me. I recently had a breakdown, and I don't want it to happen again. I need to clear my mind from many things, breathe, calm down... and make it a permanent change. I'll see what else I can do, as I also feel stuck in terms of technique.
Consider this my vacations. Otherwise, I'm afraid I might become even more irritable and worse off than before. If you're understanding, that's great, and I appreciate it. If not, I was going to do it anyway. NSFW content negatively impacts you in ways you might not realize, but they're there.
We'll meet again soon, working from the shadows in order to reach enlightment.
