September wrap-up report

Korone’s streams pretty much have this vibe. She doesn’t show off her chest, and I think that’s not right, so I made this.

Much better, It’s common sense to show some breasts during a stream.

Alright, let’s get into the main topic.

Someone recently asked me if I stopped making long videos. My answer is no, because I made [Origin 01]. This time, I want to bring back the style of my old series, just in a different way. The biggest problem with my old approach was that after making 01, I’d run into technical difficulties or lack inspiration, but I’d still force myself to make 02. Then, a disaster would happen—I might go a month or two without updates because I couldn’t finish those things or make a sequel.

Then there’s the other extreme, [New Management]. That project took about two to three months to make, and I was working on it day and night with barely any rest because it was so challenging and involved a lot of technical breakthroughs. That’s why it was such a tough project. Plus, it’s three minutes long. So, if I were to make a single episode where a character appears, struggles, dies, and then goes to necro, a reasonable runtime would be about three minutes. But if I try to complete all of that in one go, you’d see me update once every three months, which would feel boring for two months.

So, we came up with [Ending], a video that skips a lot of the process. You only see Ryo alive for five seconds, picking her drink, and then someone’s pinning her down. You don’t see anything because I didn’t make the struggle animation, so I had that guy block the view, only showing her dead. Then we quickly ran through the necro process and hung her up. [Ending] is kind of an improved version of [New Management]. It doesn’t take three months to make, but it’s still long enough—about half a month of work. The downside is it’s a bit too streamlined.

The more mainstream approach would be something like this: in the first scene, you see the heroine walking on a beach. In the next scene, a bald dark-skinned guy and a blonde dude appear behind her. Then, in the following scene, she’s pinned to the ground and taken. After switching between a couple of positions, it ends with a climax and her being left by the roadside. Done. This is a complete video process—basically, the audience can see everything they want in a single scene like this, and it’s not particularly hard to make. (I’m actually planning to do something like this with Okayu. I think the video would be super popular, tricking people into clicking and thinking it’s a normal content channel. Then we can start sneaking in necro content to make necro great again.)

So, my current conclusion is that I can still make a four-episode series, but only update one episode per month, like what you saw with [Dutch Angle 2]. I didn’t start working on 02 right after finishing [Origin 01] because that would take too long, and you’d probably have to wait another two weeks for the next video. So, my current approach is this: each month, I’ll update one episode of the latest series, and then the rest of the time, I might work on two or three other videos. Those other videos would probably feel like [Dutch Angle 2] or [Special Coaching]—maybe not super exciting, but enough to keep everyone engaged. So, we’ll make short videos in between the long ones, and then start working on the next long video for the series the following month.

Alright, let me see what else we’ve got. I heard a while back that Okayu went on a two-month vacation. That sounds pretty wild to me—like, she actually took two months off? As a creator with a ton of fans, she must’ve been dealing with a lot of built-up exhaustion. Then my fitness coach told me he’s going abroad for three months next March for a vacation. Besides being shocked he can just drop everything like that, I’m starting to worry about how I’ll stay on top of my health while he’s gone since I rely on him quite a bit. On another note, I’m also wondering if I should take a break myself, maybe two weeks or so? Two weeks feels about right. You guys remember my post from a while back called [Vacation]? That was on September 6. That Saturday, September 6, I took a bus back to the city at noon to celebrate my grandma’s 80th birthday. Then I stayed home on Sunday, but by then I was already feeling like I needed to get back to work. So, on the afternoon of September 8, I was back home working on animations again.

It’s like I said I was going on vacation, but in reality, I only took two days off from animating—Saturday and Sunday. Now, let me talk about why I suddenly mentioned planning a break. About two months ago, I kept feeling this sour sensation in my throat or mouth. I thought it’d go away after a while, but after two weeks with no improvement, I went to see a doctor. The doctor prescribed some meds, and as soon as I took them, I felt better right away. He said it was acid reflux, but there’s no organ damage yet, so I just need to be mindful. He told me to eat regular, measured meals. I remember during that time, I was super busy, so I was only eating one meal a day, but a huge one—so much that the old lady selling noodles asked me how I could eat that much. I told her it’s because I only eat once a day, and she gave me this look, like 70% concern and 30% skepticism, asking if I don’t get hungry doing that.

So, my stomach got better, but about a month ago, I started forgetting to eat again. Then I began feeling that sour sensation in my throat again. I went back to the doctor and told him the meds from last time were gross but pretty effective, so I might need more. He told me if I didn’t want to keep taking those meds, I’d need to eat regular, measured meals. Then, about four days ago, I started waking up every morning with that sour feeling in my throat again, or feeling a bit of stomach discomfort when lying in bed. That might be a warning sign, so I think I need to pay attention to it.

Another thing is, a while back, my left shoulder started feeling weird. My coach said it’s because I sit too long, and my chest, back, shoulders, and neck are all too tight, basically twisting me into a knot. He had me do some recovery exercises, but they didn’t help. So, he recommended a massage therapist who’s an absolute pro—fixed me up in one session. Training felt like I got some kind of buff, super smooth. I thought that was my happily-ever-after ending. But a month later, I started feeling all twisted again. For the past three months, I’ve been going to the massage therapist every month to loosen up. Last time, I felt better the same day, but the next day my left shoulder started acting up again. My coach tried for about two weeks, but last time he told me he’s out of ideas and said I should seek medical help. So, I booked an appointment for tomorrow, Monday, to go into the city and see a physical therapist about what’s wrong with my shoulder that keeps hurting. Plus, it’s time for my car’s maintenance, so I’ll probably be in the city Monday and Tuesday around noon. If all goes well, I should be back to animating by Tuesday.

You know, I feel like I just can’t let go of this stuff. I can’t stop thinking about making animations. So if you tell me to “rest,” I probably wouldn’t even know what to do. I think I might need a break, but I’m not sure what I’d do during it. If I do take one, it’ll probably be next year when my coach is out of the country. If he’s gone for three months and can’t train me, I might end up sitting in that damn chair for three months straight without leaving the house. I think that could be a problem, so I’m giving a heads-up that if I plan a two-week break, it’ll probably be sometime between March and June next year. I don’t know? Maybe WOW’s 12.0 will come out around then? Sounds pretty interesting.

I’m pretty curious about what my physical therapist will say about my condition when I see them on Monday, because even now as I’m writing this, my back is still pretty sore. Don’t get me wrong—I’m not complaining about how heavy my workload is. I love animation and H, especially H animation. But when your passion equals your job, you might end up working your whole life because you don’t have anything else going on. I remember when I worked at a restaurant, dealing with a bunch of idiot customers’ demands or making change and preparing their meals—I hated that job. So I really enjoyed the short time after work when I could sit at my computer and play games. Now that I’m sitting at my computer for ten-plus hours a day, I feel like I’ve lost the joy in life. Like… a sense of frustration?

Just the day before yesterday, I was thinking about what to eat for lunch, but it’s basically all microwave food—maybe microwave curry rice, microwave pasta, or microwave gratin. It’s not that there’s anything wrong with microwave food, but I’ve eaten all this stuff before, and it’s every day. I’ve been living in this remote little village for about three years, and there’s basically just one convenience store nearby. I’m starting to feel a bit lost and frustrated with life. Then I realized how dangerous this feeling is. I mean, you’re earning money but not buying anything for yourself. So, I went and bought some chocolate pies or potato chips or whatever junk food I felt like eating. I gotta say, those things made me feel a bit better—at least my life doesn’t feel so dull. Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about whether getting a rice cooker or something and spending some time cooking my own meals would be better. At least it’d make life a bit richer, and I wouldn’t be sitting in a chair all day wrecking every part of my body.

Anyway, don’t take this as some heavy complaint. I’m just sharing what I’ve been thinking about since these things probably aren’t an immediate threat. I think I can still handle it. Let’s shift the focus back to video production.

I’m planning to release [Origin 01] next month along with two or three short films. As for which short films, I’m not entirely sure since I have a bunch of half-finished projects. Maybe while I’m out of the house on Monday and Tuesday, I can think about how to tackle them.

Alright, that’s all the content. If you have any questions, feel free to hit me up on my server—I’d be happy to help answer them.

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