This Week At KosoruCG 6/10-6/16

20 years ago when I was only 6 years old, I always liked to sit at the door on rainy days and watch the heavy rain outside and enjoy the fresh air brought by the rain after washing away the dust, and enjoy the pudding in the refrigerator. 20 years later I still sit on the doorstep on rainy days, but now I have a pipe in my hand instead of pudding(I still like puddings it's just that I ate them all).

In two more 20 years, I will become a 66-year-old man, And in another 20 years, I will probably be nothing but ashes. Time flies so fast and I have almost used up 1/3 of my life. I wonder if people have become the people they want to be? I remember writing about my dreams in a composition in elementary school, but I can’t remember what I wrote.

I told my friends that our society has too many expectations for the next generation. As far as I know, there were not so many weird diseases like depression before. People usually died from infectious diseases and the like. I said that I think we should learn how to eliminate fatigue caused by sitting for a long time, or problems such as back pain and low back pain, instead of asking students to test basketball or table tennis every day, I said I learned a lot in the gym, People told me that you have been away from school for too long. The purpose of these courses is just to let children exercise their physical strength and play around. There is no need for such professional training. No student would want to receive such professional fitness training.

I told them I didn't think calculus or the periodic table were any easier, Our education is contradictory. We want them to play like children, but we want them to learn things that even most adults don't know. They told me, even if you are right, we do not have so many teachers or equipment to help them implement such education, not even abroad. I think this kind of thinking is the reason why most of the problems exist. "Experience"

People will use their experience to tell you what they have seen and heard, so many things that are impossible are considered impossible based on the experience of most people, They will tell you how difficult it is and not as easy as you think, and then do nothing.

I remember last month my neighbor told me that a certain wall that has been bothering me for a long time is redundant. In fact, I can knock down this wall without anyone complaining. No one cares about this wall except me, because it is 70 years old. People in the past may not have been so planning when building houses, so the entrance to my house has a red brick wall that is very meaningless and blocking the road. After my neighbor told me about this, I went to borrow a hammer from him and started knocking on the wall. It was an easy thing to knock off the brick wall from 70 years ago. The problem is that now There are a pile of bricks and a pile of garbage left behind from unknown time. I might need a whole truck to carry all this stuff away. Looking at the mountains of bricks and garbage in front of me, I sat down and started thinking about who could help me handle this matter. Should I pay someone to do it? Clean up the trash and take the stuff away? But who should I go to? And I didn’t know how much it would cost, and the piles of bricks and garbage in front of me bothered me a lot.

Suddenly I decided not to think about it. I got up and started picking up bricks. My thought was that there are many things if you do a little bit every day, one day this matter will be solved. But if you just sit there, Then think about how difficult this thing is, this thing will be the most difficult because it can never be completed, In the end, I spent a month cleaning up the area, paving the road with better-looking bricks and smoothing out the uneven areas. My neighbor was surprised that I did all this alone, and he sighed Young people have very good physical strength. Well, I actually think that doing this requires more willpower than physical strength, because I may only do it for two hours a day.

In fact, many things are like this. People often find problems, but no one wants to solve them. They will say that if these problems were so easy to solve, they would have been solved long ago, and then do nothing. When our education is crippling our next generation, and people's reasoning is just, it's difficult so we don't do it, I think this approach will only add more suffering to society.

I think the most important thing for people is faith, what do you believe in? I remember talking about how I went home for Mother's Day (actually it was for dried mangoes at first), Someone told me that I had a wonderful family, and I mentioned that maybe one day I would tell this story, and well, I think now is the time.

I remember when I was very young my mother used to bang her head against the wall or the closet, and when I didn't do well in exams she would tell us how stressed she was. Breaking down and crying or not going home at night, When I was a child, all I remember of my mother was her tired and disappointed look on my sister and me. My sister is two years older than me. When she was in junior high school, she started working and smoking and not coming home at night. I think I know why. No one wants to come back to this home. But I was probably only ten years old at the time, and I just wanted to grow up and get away from here. I remember one time I had an argument with my mother, and she told me that she had given everything for the family, and how she had to stay up late studying just to get a job. , and she told me how she wanted her child to grow up to be, and I remember she telling me the whole night that I wasn't the child she wanted, That night I opened the window and thought about it for a long time in the room on the fifth floor. In the end, I didn't jump, so I am now writing a weekly report here. My sister quickly found a way to survive in this family. Lying. She said she was going to see a movie, she was going to do something to hang out with friends, but I actually knew that she was using it to recharge online games. Then play a different character in an online game and have a different life. I remember when I was in high school, because I wanted to see my mother's smile again, I worked hard and got the first place in the class. When my mother came home and told her that I got the first place in the class, she only told me sarcastically. , the kind of school you go to, even if you get first place in the school, it is not competitive.

After a while, I told my mother that I wanted to work in Japan and make a career in the world abroad. Then I studied Japanese and got the N4 license in one month. My tutor was surprised that I was not in a related major can actually managed to get an N4 license. I told my mother the good news and let her know how much I wanted to work in Japan. She just asked me: "What is the highest level?" , I said "N1 is the highest, I am N4 now, but I can take N2 next year", She just told me that the highest level is N1 and you are only N4 now and you still want to compete with others. You must be kidding.

From that day on, I knew that my mother would not be happy no matter what I did, but she was very satisfied with my sister. My sister has been working in a convenience store since she was 13 years old. My mother thought that she was very sensible and could stay in the same job for a long time. In fact, as of today 2024/06/12, she is still working in a convenience store. I have to say that my sister is really determined.

Another reason why my mother particularly likes my sister is that she thinks my father is a loser. They quarreled every day when I was young. My mother thinks that the reason why I am like this is because of my father. And my mother also has a loser brother. Everyone including me knows that shes brother is a loser, so our family is a female-dominated family, because my mother’s income is three times that of my father, and my sister has a stable job. and I was constantly changing jobs and the pay was very low.

After a while, I went to Japan to study with the help of relatives, but I came back after just a 10 month, because I think Japan is actually not a good place to live. Although it may be rude to the Japanese to say this, I really feel that the social pain of the Japanese is too high. I can feel it when I look at the people on the train. The pain of this nation, but we will tell that story next time, Of course, when I got home, I still had to be ridiculed by my mother and told me that I had accomplished nothing, but in fact, I had no feelings at that time.

But actually the incident that really let me to leave home was...

One day my sister told me that my mother would now start collecting rent. Because I lived at home, I had to pay. In my mind, my mother was someone who would do such a thing, so although I felt very dissatisfied, I still I paid my sister, because my mother usually left a lot of things to her. After I paid every month for about two years, when I was 20 years old, I had already paid about $6,500. I was working in a restaurant that day. don’t know why, I suddenly want to send a message to ask mother if she has received the money? As a result, she sent me a message telling me that this was not the case at all. She did not tell my sister that she wanted to charge me rent, so I was defrauded of $6,500 by my sister. I was very angry and wanted to go to my sister to argue, but my mother started telling me that she now felt that I really should have to pay, and that it was right for my sister to charge the money, because I was so bad, I'm really suck, so my sister It's right that I should be charged. I was washing dishes at that time, and suddenly all my tears burst out. The tearing feeling in my chest made me extremely painful. My colleagues immediately came to care about what happened to me. I told them After hearing about this incident, they immediately found someone to help me take over my job and let me go to the back room to calm down (I’m really grateful that I have a group of good friends). Even though my mother already knew that my sister had cheated me of my money, she still planned to take it, I moved out a month after this incident. I lived in a room with only a table, bed and toilet. The monthly rent was 300 US dollars, which was about half of my salary, but I was very happy. After I left this home, I decided that even if my parents died, I would not go to their funerals.

Ah, I seem to have talked about a lot of things in the past, but I haven’t mentioned anything related to animation yet?

This Thursday is the 10 year commemoration ceremony for my other grandmother’s death. My mother’s mother is still alive, but my father’s mother died ten years ago. My family will all come back to where I live now. In memory of my grandmother, I will also meet my family this week. I will tell you the rest of the story in next week’s weekly report. But now we should go back to the video part

okay, I may have smoked too many pipes just now, but I’m sure I smoked regular tobacco and not marijuana. Let's go back to the video and tell the rest of the story next time

Basically, I plan to pause the updates of {Open Season} and {With You}, because actually I don’t think every series needs to be completed with four episodes. In the past there were four episodes partly because the previous videos were shorter, but I I feel like the amount of video content nowadays has increased and sometimes it’s impossible to make four episodes.

So actually everyone should have seen {Idol 01}, which means our next video is {Idol 02}, I expect that this month we may be doing some sequels to old series and the like, and then next month we will start working on a bunch of already planned requested videos including {Occupational injuries 04}, and I expect that next week there may be something about News about game planning? I'm still waiting to hear from my programmer, hoping he won't ask me for tens of thousands of dollars lol

You can see on the cover of the weekly that Nico has some different effects on her face. Basically, I would like to do some different effects this time, Basically, the most completely dead character in my video is definitely the {Doll} series, but I actually really want a girl in a half-dead state similar to the {Poison} series. Now that I have better skills, I think I'll try it again. It’s also very good to make this kind of half-dead state.

It's already super late without me noticing, and I think I should go to bed before I get a headache. I seem to have finished telling all the plans that I should talk about, and I've talked a lot about what I shouldn't, so Let's do this first, lest no one can finish reading this weekly lol

okay that's all

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