the deepest dive into maru from stardew valley

for the last week or so i've been starting my days writing these and it's been so fun honestly, gonna miss it when i upload the last one!!

maru ok. ok. WOW did people disagree with me about demetrius. loads and loads of people agree and say i changed their mind <3 but lots disagree and thats fine!! but more people disagreed in an uncool way lol. someone recently said i was 'projecting my autism'. which, yeah probably but YOU'RE not allowed to say that hahaha. i feel like i did a pretty good job of admitting my biases but what im learning is that no matter how many disclaimers you put, people are always gonna comment something that you literally said in the video. but that kind of comment just makes me go 'i literally said that in the video' and then move on. sometimes i'll be in kind of a pissy mood for a few hours but thats the worst of it and honestly for me?? for me the most sensitive woman in the world?? with rejection sensitive dysphoria?? thats amazing

if i could go back i would not have gone QUITE as hard though. within an hour of posting it i had already responded to someone's fair comment that i was going super hard on robin, saying that yeah thats true my bad. i think it was cos there is such a huge amount of demetrius hate i just came out swinging in the opposite direction. and i was so sure i was right. unsubscribe from my channel do it!! lmao

but yeah demetrius should have learned about robin by now. it's hard cos in my relationship my partner and i are both autistic (undiagnosed but like cmon) but i have adhd too so its a constant struggle to communicate effectively. i am BAD at it. i am both robin and demetrius!! so i guess it was nice to criticise someone's communication for once lol. to be fair she's so snippy with him, all the comparisons to normal people? ew robin. but yeah he's not faultless. i do feel like i didnt call him faultless but ya gotta be clear about these things.

this was the origin of the sebastian being so numb joke i think!!!! hahah thats a classic fiona sangster staple at this point. its weird to use my name as a brand like that. youtube tells me how people find my videos and the top search is just people searching my full name which is insane lol. if i could go back i would probably choose something that wasnt just my full name. for privacy. but oh well. i couldnt think of another name for it and i wanted to publish the videos lol