the deepest dive into elliott from stardew valley

omg the amount that my opinion changed on elliott is actually insane

he was my least favourite purely bc of the way he orders u wine. i didnt know about the way alex orders u salad :/// (allegedly) cos i would always play as a girl but the elliott thing made me MAD

but there's so much random stuff like that in stardew ... like im working on the sebastian video and i just found that he also has a line where it's one thing if you're a girl and another thing if you're a boy. if you're a girl he says he likes your hair, if you're a boy he says he likes your boots. like cmon eric!!! keep it the same!!! you coward!!!

so in a broader context elliott doesnt look so bad lol. plus the comments ive got on that video are so good like the comparison to the 'bodice ripper' novels?? we love. and so many people saying they love how unapologetically himself he is and u know what? me too. a lot of people also think he's autistic and like omg yes agree

i really liked the idea about the 4h scene that some people posed, that he was playing this character and thought it would be the 'gentlemanly' thing to do to order the wine for you, but he just kinda overshot. to be fair some women commented that they liked it! they thought it was chivalrous! i ... did not, but that is ok. i give elliott the benefit of the doubt these days, that little fop contains multitudes

in a behind the scenes sense this was the video that really made my channel like 'blow up' to a degree - like it got over 1k views in the first day which for a channel with 3 videos was a LOT, and it made people go back and watch the other 2 videos! it's funny how that works with youtube - people would comment on the other 2 'i found you from the elliott video', and then with the harvey video i had the same thing, and with the penny video that happens a LOT cos that one just kinda fucking took off it's at like 160k views 😭 i've seen other youtubers refer to it as a video breaking 'containment' and being shown to more people. i remember writing a diary entry after putting out this vid bc it was the same day that my best friend told me she was pregnant and i had my wedding dress fitting, just writing like, i am so happy :'''')

at this point i was still really trying to keep my expectations low. like i started making these videos with my expectations in hell bc i have a habit of setting them high and being disappointed. i was just making them cos i wanted to not cos i wanted to make money or be a youtuber (though those were things i wanted obviously but i was trying as hard as i could to do it for the enjoyment)

like i say in the video, it's hard when a monetary incentive comes into a passion project. it can kind of throw everything off. i try hard not to let that affect me still - eg i still swear a LOT in my videos haha just cos i do irl, to try and edit myself wouldnt feel genuine. like there's the tiktok thing of "unalive" and things like that - i did refer to domestic violence as DV in the most recent video but i put a lot of thought into that and it's the first time i've kind of deliberately censored anything (ultimately i decided that people would know what i meant and it was such a brief mention that it wasnt worth worrying about for too long). there really arent any guidelines on what will demonetise you, youtube has some but they're so vague. eg yesterday it told me the sam and maru videos would have limited ads despite those videos being up for over a month - i requested a review and now they're both back to normal with no idea why that happened. i've heard youtubers talk about this kind of thing before but man when it's happening to you it's nuts, they literally give you nothing, no info, and you're sitting there worrying about how it's gonna affect things

anyway since it's so opaque i figure you may as well ask for forgiveness not permission. a lot of youtube videos i see, they censor swear words - i havent done that once and my videos are all monetised fine (for now lol) so i figure until they tell me off imma just keep doing what im doing

(also funny sidenote youtube does tell you don't swear in the first 7 seconds of the video - i say 'fuck yeah' at 10 seconds into this one LOL)

ok that was a long one!!!! this is fun like reminiscing on where i was when i put each of these out. especially as we get into the colder months. i do worry that the happiness i have found over the last 6 months or so actually isn't from the incredibly fulfilling job i now have but from the sun lmao, so its nice to remind myself of how far i've come! plus i bought a SAD lamp and some vitamin d ;p

ps the flowers in the vid were from valentines day :) i bought them for my husband i buy him flowers every year cos fucc da patriarchy