Career as an artist
Added 2022-06-08 04:46:18 +0000 UTCI have been an artist for over 3 years, with many nasty situations that i find it hard to believe that i actually managed to get myself in and escaped.
At first, i started as a begger ( you can say that ). I was very insecure about my own art but still wanted to get some customers. I got serious frustration over the status as an unknown. If no one knows you exist, what's the point of drawing?
The second phase of my career, i kinda accepted my status as an unknown guy. That was year 2. I hate people, hate alot of other artists. There were alot of disagreements and harrasments on both sides and i just wanted to escape that world of artist, the world that i desperately wanted to become a part of it. And i did. I nolonger communicate to other artists, block my social media off them like a guy who just disappeared from reality. I even tried to get myself banned from social media groups like a total self destructive individual
However, things started to change when i actually nolonger focus on my idenity as an artist. I just get into other hobbies like videogames, anime and manga. And one day, i drawn a joke art, specificly, this artwork i called " Tengen Toppa Gundam Barbatos".
And then, this thing blew up. It became my most successful and popular artwork, usually handed over in mecha community as a joke art. People starting to know me. However, this spawns other problem. I especially just want to keep my idenity as normal guy with secondary hobby, that is drawing. I never shill my own artworks in mecha groups, i just want to post stuff i like in these groups. My career went up in the momment i nolonger cared about it as much as before. So ironic.
Eventually, i came to term with it and adjusted it as a part of my life.
