Ramble at Antarctic Proportions - 2025 in conclusion

Better late than never. Or with these posts, I know some of you'd say, better not at all. But I like to look back, so that's what I'm going to do.

2023 was a bad year, 2024 was one of my best. 2025... was up and down. It was meant as a year where I'd ease up a bit, relax with only two stories to worry about instead of 3-4. While my passion for writing has never, and will never, cease, I thought a small easing up would do me good.

Unfortunately, in a very short amount of time in April, I lost up to 80% of my wealth. I was never rich, but I had enough of a room to take my time with projects(writing and otherwise), leeway if you will. May, I wasn't able to pay a lot of my bills. I think some can relate to that feeling. And I know this sounds like a 'oh boohoo, look at me,' but it really isn't. While I lost a lot, it kicked me into high gear. I only know how to write, so that's what I've been doing the previous year. All over the world. And yes, literally all over the world. And this is exhausting, and time-consuming, and has obviously had an effect on my production rate in erotica. But I managed. Almost. Barely. That being said, honestly, I love being back to working on all sorts of projects. An episode there, a scene there, helping directing a manuscript toward its original goal, all kinds of things. From where I live and elsewhere. But a rest year? I think not.

But time has been a constant issue, and even the projects I set out into 2025 hoping to achieve has taken a backseat. And I've barely been able to keep on top of the current projects.

I'm not sure how to address this part of the summary correctly. I don't want to bad-mouth anyone, I don't want to cause any trouble or get any. But basically, I've had many issues with Literotica over the year, and from October and until the foreseeable future, the cup has been spilled(is that how the saying works in English?). Since October, I've had an issue with them, and I've tried to reach out, but they refuse to engage. I tried to muscle through it also, but it doesn't seem possible. So I'm no longer going to post on Literotica. I know this is very disadvantageous for everyone, me, them, you, but it is what it is. This will not be resolved.

I'm working on an alternative for my free releases, either CHYOA, my own website, or something entirely different, but I'm working on it. I just... like writing more.

And to be honest, the issues I've had with them and seeing them lead to this has been a real killer for me.

That is not to say it has been a bad year. I've never had much confidence in my stance in the erotica world(other than my pure skill, of course) – I don't really think about it – but once the shit hit the fan, and I had to do one delay after the other, I was prepared to get a new asshole. And I'm at a lack of words, which says a lot given what I do for a living, but I'm absolutely amazed by the support I get from my own little corner of the internet. The gratitude I feel cannot be understated. Sure, I don't always tell the exact stories folks want, hell, I often tell the stories I don't want, but no matter the project, I do it to the best of my abilities, and I try to make whatever story I tell to be justified and well-written within the parameters of that story. To be given the freedom to do so, and for people to support me regardless of everything, I cannot describe the tranquil serenity that I feel. It gives me courage and motivation where sometimes it is hard to find. And I honestly can't thank you guys and gals enough.

But 2025, in summary, has been eventful. I still talk to very few people, Anora and Roxy for the most part(I'm a lone wolf, this is how I operate), but I've met a lot of new people and experiences along the way. In our space, Hannah Baird is one such example. Including her to our small circle of writers is perhaps one of the best and dynamic things I've done. We've also been tinkering on something too, but it is a slow process so I'll leave it at that.

I've also seen a few of my old readers return, and that has been a pleasant surprise. Sometimes I see people I like leave, and it is a nice revisit when they return.

Goals and aspirations. For 2026, well, my first goal was to not get drafted as the country where I reside was threatened with invasion. Nice way to start the year. Then, very abruptly, I got offered a boxing fight(I used to be a decent boxer, and I thought life is short anyway), which ended very well. So off to a good start.

But in terms of erotica, which is why you're here, I have a few clear goals. I want to start my own website. Either as a place for multiple erotic writers, or just me. I want to conclude TNT/AYCJ. We're not far off with that one. I'm not sure if BtND will see its end this year, but I hope so. I might also have a mini-series(not sure if I will release it unless I'm able to finish it) with Nate and his therapist. Then I really, really hope to pivot into perhaps futanari content. Maybe more romantic stuff. Yes, I know. Roll your eyes, but that's honestly where my passion is, and always has been. I did NTR/cuckolding for a brief stint to test myself, and I think, in terms of what I wanted to do, I've completed the genre.

Don't cry. I know it's sad. But all good things have to come to an end(queue Nelly Furtado). I simply can't commit myself to another long-form series within the NTR space(except one or two projects that is on my bucket list... here we go again). That being said, if you fine and less fine folks have suggestions for shorter stories (1-2-5 parts) then by all means, creampie the comment section, discord, the DMs, all that. No promises, though, but I'll listen, perhaps compile, and try to stay active in this space for a little while longer.

I must say, when I started, my audience was very small. That is now 3.5 years ago, and we've grown a bit. Sharing my wild ramblings about nonsense and nothings is a bit more daunting now than when I started. But it has become tradition, at least to me, so here I am. Talking nonsense that I think holds very little value.

And I know this post started as a pity cry, woe is me, whatever, but no. I don't want anyone to feel bad for me. I'm living in a first-world country, doing what I love, surrounded by people that I love and who love me in return. Feel bad for those who deserve it.

As always, be excellent to each other. Belated happy new years to everyone.