Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

Yeah, it hasn't even been a month and here is another post! But been trying to come to a conclusion about some decisions I need to make and I thought I would let you all know about. If you are not interested in my life circumstances or money you should stop reading now. But things affecting those might affect the development of the bot.

Sooo, for those that do not know, I've been without a job since I before I started working on the bot. Luckily I live in a country that has a good support system and offers "minimal living cost support" as long as you look for a job "full time" and report in, and also that you take part in other programs they "offer". But because of Covid all the programs were "closed".

But now the programs are starting up again and I've been assigned one, where I would be doing "work-training", which more or less mean I would be working 75-100% without "real" pay, but it might lead to "real work" in the future.

Here is my dilemma I am not earning just enough from this project that I do not need or get "minimal living cost support". Which btw I'm so very grateful for, sure I had hoped to be able to get to this point, but hope and actually getting to that point is totally different things and I never thought it would happen so soon. But now even with not needing the support at the moment they are still offering the program, beacuse one I'm still just about surviving and this could lead to real work and two if I would have to seek "minimal living cost support" again it would be easier to get it if I was in the program.

But again if I choose to do the program it's more or less 75% to full-time work, which would likely lead to less time to work on the bot, I could not say how much it would affect the bot as I would still put down as much effort as possible in the bot as it is a passion project.
Or do I put trust in myself, the project and all of you and really try to take this full time. I might be earning just enough to live atm but that is fine because I would get to work full time on my passion project, it's after all what I want to do and work on, Also nothing stops me from still searching for a job, but would likely look some sort of part-time job if anything instead of something full time that I'm required to look for when in the program.

It's a bit of a scary decision and I would not be lying if I said it's likely the biggest one I've had to make. But the more I write about it the more I'm leaning towards taking "a leap of faith" and try to make this project work! I want to continue building upon this thing that so many of you have found useful and I want to give you people new and more tools to improve your streams and if I can do so full time I really want to give that a chance!

Also please don't take this is I'm trying to put pressure on you guys to continue to support the project, I if anyone know how it is to be low on cash it's me, so if you don't feel like you can afford to support this project please take care of yourself first. Like always I just want to be open and honest with you guys as I value your support. Also if you don't feel like it's worth supporting the project whatever decision I make up making that is fine too, but going to give myself a few more days to think and I hope to have your support whatever that decision end up being.