Reasons for long patreon pause

So I haven't uploaded any stories in a while. I suppose some of you might be wondering why.

To be honest: The past few months, as I've said before, have been extremely difficult for me, and it doesn't look like things are getting better anytime soon. I haven't felt very 'little' at all the past few months, and that's something I need to feel if I am to write. I honestly haven't felt much of anything, in the past few months, other than anxiety and depression.

I feel like with all the things that's been happening to me over the last months, it broke something inside me I didn't know could still be broken. I feel like I'm fading away. It's like nothing matters to me anymore, it's hard to feel any long-term emotions over something. I just revert back to stony apathy after a few minutes of anything happening, and when I'm not apathetic, it's usually anxiety and depression.

I don't know what it is. I don't know what others can do to help me. I don't know what I can do to help myself. I just feel completely drained of everything. This isn't for a lack of trying. Those who say I feel this way because I'm not trying- do you think I enjoy feeling this way? Because I don't. I just feel utterly defeated, mentally and physically, and even the strongest man in the world has a limit. I think I've reached mine.

I'm not sure where to go from here. This is why I'm taking a break from writing, from a lot of things, to just step back and look at my life- and find my footing again. Somehow. I just wish I knew how.

This does NOT mean I am quitting the babyfur fandom or writing entirely. I just need some time to think things over, so I personally won't be acting very little or writing for a while. You are still perfectly free to talk to me about your little things, your problems, random chat, etc. Just please don't be offended if I seem a little reserved, or don't reply to messages- it's easy to get overwhelmed right now, and sometimes, I just need to close up my shell for a while.

Thank you all, so much, for everything, for all your support all this time. To my friends, who gave me kind words, and are trying to help me through this. To my fans, who gave me words of support, constructive criticism, and somehow thought my writing was worthy of Patreon pledges. To the artists I watch, for producing amazing content that was the reason why I joined the babyfur fandom in the first place. Thank you, everyone, truly.