Hiiiii update time!!

Hi hi friends!!
I have had no wifi and one data service bar thing for the past week, so I haven't really been able to hop on and chat. I've coincidentally had to post tons of sponsored posts on Instagram during this insanely hectic time, which seems disingenuine but I can't really help that! Sponsored posts are something that really stress me out; I am soooo careful with who I accept sponsorships from (making sure they're gucci and not scams, not something trying to make money off my followers, and generally good causes) so even after my safety check, I get so freaked that my followers will think I'm trying to scam or get something from them through my sponsorships! Not the case, but hello anxiety my old friend.


I do wanna talk about the Dell and Alienware sponsorships; the Dell sponsorship was actually a tiny amount of remuneration for the video and posts. I accepted a super lowball offer for the posts just because I genuinely love Dell and thought it was INSANELY cool that they wanted to work with me for the Project Innovate redesign/launch. I got on a couple video calls with the directors of the project, and they were sooo genuine and cool and cute and sweet; like they kept telling me how much they liked my stuff and how they just wanted me to talk about Project Innovate in my own words. They didn't even give me bullet points, and they've been checking up on me with my move and health (no brands do that; it's super personal and sweet). So that's been so cool; I felt bad spamming on my Instagram about the giveaway (even though it's a giveaway and free stuff).


And then Alienware sent a super secretive email asking me to sign a non-disclusure if I wanted to know more about their secret project, and I signed it and hopped on a call with the guy pretty immediately. He was so sweet and kind as well and told me about how Alienware wants me to stream for the virtual E3 launch thing; LIKE LITERALLY BONKERS?? I have an Alienware, and I stan soooo hard?! And he was so feminist positive and telling me how the goal for this year was to sponsor and partner with more female creatives and gamers because they're very underrepresented in these industries. Oh my gosh, it was so cool. I'm beyond grateful and in shock of opportunities like these; obviously, I'm an influencer promoting a launch or giveaway. It's not like I'm doing an insane partnership and I'm the bee's knees, but to be thought of as a worthwhile influencer to support is so incredible. I'm so grateful for this and I'm mind-blown. And also the timing of opportunities like this is insane. This is the first time I've been in debt, ever. I've always been so careful with my money, and taxes, my downpayment, and this remodel completely wiped me out. I've had such bad anxiety and hard times thinking about how I'm going to work myself out of this, and the timing for this support is incredible. Like.. a super huge God thing. It makes me so unbelievably grateful.


Okay weird tired rambling over. I just wanted to share some positives that have been in my life recently. I've been hit hard by anxiety and being overwhelmed the past couple of weeks, so I'm trying to focus on the good things (and there are so many). Case in point, you guys! Even just emotionally, knowing you support me gives me so much peace, clarity, and calm and I am so overwhelmed by your love and generosity to me. In the past year, I've begun valuing kindness above a lot of positive attributes, and you guys have shown me sooo. much. kindness. I'm overwhelmed by your love and support (I could cry, and I have cried hahaha).


Let me know what rewards you want this month as I'm getting everything figured out. I'm not gonna have a sketchbook PDF just since I haven't had one second to sketch this past month, so let me know what I can put out for you!


Hope you are so well and healthy and in a good headspace!!!