Weekly Update

Hey guys! I'm a little late with this week's update, but I've been super busy!

I've been working at my assignments and since I'm taking 18 credits, it's just a lot of work right now! (If you're a $5+ patron, I'll be posting all the assignments that I've already gotten the grade back for right after this post.) Most of my weekly projects are worth more than 100 points each, so it's sort of stressful having at least 3 projects due each week, but I'm living life on the edge and actually enjoying a lot of what I have assigned. I'm getting into more of that edgy design school artwork that I've been hearing so much about. A lot of it is making nonobjective art (basically, squiggling on paper with meaning...) so I'm half annoyed that doodles are worth 125 points, but also happy that assignments are just.. doodles? I still have no idea what I think about learning how modern art effectively uses design principles. I just feel like a snobby art student looking at random brush strokes and pretending to understand the deep philosophical meaning behind them when I honestly have no idea what's going on. Other than my 2D Design class assignments, I have a 3D Design class in which I've needed to build a wire sculpture, paper robot, and clay tile by now. I feel like a little kid with hot glue, but I'm doing my best to not suck. 

Personally, I'm still doing the up and down rollercoaster thing, but I've gotten close to two of my friends in the past couple of weeks, so it's super nice to form those deeper relationships. I'm trying to find the right balance of alone time and hanging out with people; I think I'm making up for being alone the whole summer by trying to hang out every single day. It's making me really neglect work and my bucket list projects (like holy cow, Inktober is almost here??! What am I going to do for it???). I'm trying to educate myself into remembering that being alone is what I need sometimes, both to be confident in my own mind and thoughts, as well as to get assignments and artwork done. I find it difficult to want to be in my dorm since it is so cramped (and two of my quadmates have sticks up their butts, so I'm scared of going into the common area or they'll send more passive aggressive texts to the qua group chat), and I don't feel like I have enough room to spread out my art supplies and to work on projects. I'm trying to clean and to make sure that everything is as organized as possible, but I'm very ready to have my own apartment next year and to finally have a designated studio space! Thoughts that get me excited and keep me going. 

Oh! I've also been working out Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays! I actually have lost 15 pounds this past month because of all the stress and not eating, so I'm determined to be strong and to let bad feels out by working out, and so far, it's been awesome! I'm not a sporty person and really can't run at all so I've always hated working out, but it feels rewarding to go through voluntary pain and come out alive hahaha! I don't have bat wings anymore which is kinda cool. Also, I say working out; it's more like flailing on the elliptical for 40 minutes-- no judgement.

And last thing is, I really want a Sigma 35mm F1.4 ART lens.. but it's so expensive. I want to get back into photography so that I can have an excuse to buy it, so I brought my DSLR to college and I'm hoping to take some pretty cool self portraits to update my profile pics (think Luke Fontana/Jack Harries? Will probably be dollar store version of their work honestly). 

MOVIES
I watched The Nun with my friend on Friday night, and it was kinda boring and dumb (I was falling asleep and my friend kept punching me to wake up), but it was a good time. I'm a big horror fan but I knew it was going to be a pretty eh movie. Some of the visual effects/design were really cool though! The contrast between light and dark and white, slate grey and red was really awesome.

MUSIC
Nobody- Mitski

FACES- The Blaze

Easy Money- Westerman

Back Down- Bob Moses

Mariners Apartment Complex- Lana Del Rey