THE GOBLIN NEWSLETTER 38
Added 2024-08-02 01:13:08 +0000 UTCA big part of being an artist is being a filter. My filter is very sensitive to certain things, at least consciously. Certain cultural things drive me nuts, others make me unbelievably happy & are life affirming. My sense of disgust & hatred of things has really softened over time. I used to feel real revulsion at certain things. Now they don’t bug me so much. It makes me & life more tolerable in general. But it’s still there. Like a turd in the corner, a bit of rotting meat left out, stinking up the place, those things I don’t like. I then combine & express the things I love as projects. The craft of expression through drawing & writing is a huge element as well. It took lots of work & just doing. I am a believer in the 10,000 hours theory, where you have to do something for 10,000 hours to be good at it. The ideas part comes from a sensitivity & a view of the world that can’t be learned. I can be more disciplined in what I consume, I can look for stuff that really speak to this thing. Because I am just different I’ve got an idiosyncratic expression. My brain doesn’t work normally. It’s okay, I’ve got brain damage on top of that from the stroke too! I just need to keep that in mind. Get it, in mind! Anyway, doing this all properly is like eating right, watching out for too many empty caloric cultural objects & going for raw, unprocessed things that give me something real to build on. The value judgment & emotional energy come from before I actually knew how my brain worked, how being an artist works. Now that I have more understanding I don’t need the judgment or emotional energy to know what to stay away from or move towards. I just do it.
