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(nsfw) sara's nonstop nut

Second part of the bonus illustrations for November! Surprise, it's three of them! :D
I wanted to do something a little special for this, and since it's supposed to be "Sara celebrating nonstop nut November" it just makes sense to have more than one pic 😇
Special thank you to everyone in our Discord who helped me decide on a pose! (Well, poses.) Even though I ended up doing both of the poses I was trying to decide between...

She/her for this character (and the bonus character in pic #3, who may or may not be Avila).
I really hope you all enjoy these!

risu mont blanc

The winning prompt for this month was "Sara participating in nonstop nut November (with Ayunda Risu, maybe?)" - and I'm still working on the part with Sara! I didn't feel comfortable drawing an unknown (to me) Vtuber with my OC in something NSFW, but I did want to make a squirrel crossover! So I drew Risu in one of Sara's outfits with a few tweaks to suit her character 🐿️

She's holding a mont blanc cupcake. I really want to try a mont blanc...

I hope you all enjoy this fanart, and I'll be posting something spicy with my OC soon, so please look forward to the 2nd part! :D
(And to anyone gathering with friends and family this week, take care and have a restful holiday!!)

November bonus illustration poll🍂

Time to decide a prompt for this month's bonus illustration!
Thanks for all that submitted a request! And thank you again for your patience with me this month <3

The poll is set to end by 11/26. (You can vote for more than one prompt!)
I added a few options too, which are marked with *!
Some of my existing original character references can be found here!

(nsfw) a threesome comic 🍆

A commission for Nodocchi! It's her OC (the center character with light brown hair) and two ladies from Azur Lane (New Jersey and Tennessee), she/her for all three characters.
Would love to do more of these colored comic commissions! They're a bit of work but pretty fun :3

(nsfw) chomp

A commission for mochizukivt with 2 versions! Featuring her with Feixiao from Honkai Star Rail (she/her for both characters).
😻

HALLOWEEN

My friend and Vtuber child VV is streaming her first original song tonight at 5PM PST! I made this cover illustration for her song. ✨
I'm super excited about her working on her music and I hope you'll all check it out! Click here for the Youtube link (and here's her Bandcamp!) 💜

https://www.twitch.tv/vv_vermilion

(nsfw) farcille!

(Happy Halloween and thanks for waiting on this month's bonus pic! I have more stuff in the works for patrons but couldn't get them finished in time for October... I hope you'll stick around to see em! (❁´◡`❁) )

The winning prompt for October was "ST4T Falin and Marcille from Dungeon Meshi"! I made two versions for this and drew them both a little bit differently than last time - I really hope you all enjoy it 💜
(The two different versions are transmasc & transfem Marcille!)

(nsfw) a little tied up 💜

A chastity/restraint YCH I did a little bit ago on Vgen! For Alaris, Jamie, and Juniemint
(she/her, she/her and she/they for each character in order)
I think these came out cute, and it'd be fun to do more of them sometime ✨

(nsfw) redo - squirrel x succubus

I made a poll on Twitter asking for opinions on another older illustration to redo, and this one won (although just barely!).
I've always liked the original image because I think Sara and Avila make a really cute pairing, even though I haven't drawn them as a couple very much. I adjusted a few things in the redone image (took off Avila's collar because I don't really draw her with one anymore) but otherwise kept it about the same! Really hope you all enjoy it o(￣▽￣)o

October bonus illustration poll 🎃✨

Time to decide a prompt for this month's bonus illustration!
Thanks for all that submitted a request! And thank you for waiting on me to post up this poll!
I feel like there's quite a few ideas here that'll be popular, so I'm very curious to see what wins 👀

The poll is set to end by 10/25. (You can vote for more than one prompt!)

Some of my existing OC references can be found here!
*I've got a new character reference page on my website with some galleries for most of my OCs, so check it out :3

(nsfw) lovey-dovey couple

Sahar and Sandalphon from GBF, sketchpage commission for VanilleChai! He/him for both characters.

This sketch page includes some headcanons for the two characters. I always enjoy getting to add little details like that to make a fanart commission feel a little more "Personal" for the one who requested it (●ˇ∀ˇ●)

work & health updates 💜

Thank you everyone, as always, for your support this month!! 💜
To start, I wanted to remind folks that I have a Bluesky account (and I also made a SFW only profile here if you’d like to follow both)! I’ll probably still be posting some watermarked artwork to Twitter on occasion to try to get people to follow me elsewhere, but I'll probably be focusing on Bluesky for social media going forward.

I’ve wanted to make an update post for a while now, just to share what I’ve been dealing with, but I’ve had a hard time doing so until now! Everything has been so overwhelming, and I’ve struggled with communication issues and a fear of annoying people/coming off as whiny/etcetc. But my health also affects my work as an artist, so I need to push past my fear and just speak honestly about myself.

This might be kind of rambly, but if you would like to know how I’m doing, here’s the update:

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At the end of September, I got a full MRI done of my spine, which I’d never had done before (but probably should have). It revealed a few new things about what’s going on with my body, although it’s all related to my scoliosis, which is considered severe at a curve of 85 degrees and would normally have been treated with surgery during childhood. My spine also has some canal stenosis (basically, the spine narrowing and putting pressure on the nerves and spinal cord), as well as bulging discs. Each of these factors on their own can cause pain, which might put into perspective the level of pain that I’ve been experiencing.

Because I haven’t had an MRI done before, I can’t compare these results to anything other than previous X-rays of my spine. While my scoliosis has been severe since it was initially diagnosed when I was around 18, there are obviously some things that have degenerated since then, as these are all degenerative conditions.
Over the course of this year, I’ve gradually lost my ability to bend over without pain or muscle spasms, and my chronic pain has worsened.

I don’t really know what my next steps are, because I’ve been told by multiple spine specialists over the years that it’s “up to me” if I were to get spinal fusion surgery, but it wouldn’t fix my spine because of the severity of the curve. It is possible that even after surgery, I may experience ongoing or worsening pain later in life because of it. I’ve pretty much been left on my own to manage my condition through my adult life, since nothing has ever been offered to me as a treatment plan, aside from physical therapy. There’s simply no easy fix to my condition, and I think many doctors and specialists have underestimated the severity of it, possibly due to my downplaying of pain. I’ve been able to get by for years now, but a lot of that I believe is due to being extremely dissociated from my body and the level of pain I’ve been in. I have been dealing with undiagnosed (C)PTSD alongside all this, which is a big source of the dissociation and disconnection with my body.

It’s been a struggle to get medical care in the place that I’m currently living, and I’m on a waiting list for pretty much everything, both for my physical conditions as well as mental health. Thankfully, because I’ve been able to better understand what’s been going on with me, I’ve been able to help myself in some ways by being more mindful of my mental health. There isn’t a whole lot at the moment that helps my physical symptoms, but I’m trying everything I can to minimize pain so that I can keep working and being active as much as possible. 

All this stuff going on has made me shut down from communicating at times, especially when the pain is severe or I’m feeling sick. Because of that, I’ve been struggling with things like talking in my Discord server/talking to friends and things like that. It’s really hard to explain to people what I’m going through, but it affects my day to day life heavily. I hate that I shut down, though, and I’m actively working on it. You may have seen me say that before, because, well, it’s been going on for a long time! But as I said, I have a better understanding of why I feel so terrible at times and why I isolate/struggle with communication, so things are getting better bit by bit as I figure out ways to make it easier for myself.

All that is to say that I am still working, and I’ll never stop making art for as long as I’m able, but I’m also dealing with some of the worst pain I’ve ever felt during flare-ups that can last for days. I’m still the sole provider for myself and my spouse right now. Especially because of this, I appreciate everyone that supports me financially in any way, so much! I also appreciate anyone who shares my art with others and sends other people my way, through social media/discord/whatever. I’m so glad that I have art as an outlet, and I hope everyone continues to enjoy the things I make.
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Thank you so much for reading this, and for being here! I have lots of works in progress that I’m excited to share with you all, and I’ll be gradually catching up on posting work that I haven’t posted yet as well. 💜 I hope you all are having a good October!!

 

(nsfw) perfume appreciation

Commission for Lydia of Emilie (Genshin) as a trans woman (she/her)!

(nsfw) girlfriend turnabout

Gold tier request for Kirboh! (I have one more slot available for this tier!)

 They requested a role reversal for Camellia and September (she/her pronouns for both).
It turns out that September is kinda shy when she's not the dominant one, I guess!

(nsfw) cat couple sketch

Commission for Mel. W'rehm (OC) and G'raha from FFXIV! he/him for both characters 💖 Mel's OC is cis, and G'raha is transmasc here.

it's time for halloween yuri

The winning prompt for this month was for something new featuring the nun and demon pair from last year!!
I made an updated reference image for them as well as a more softcore illustration to contrast the explicit sketch page I did before.

The nun is named Camellia and the demon is September! She/her for both.
I think they're a pretty cute pair (❁´◡`❁) I hope you all agree!
I've also attached the illustrations from last year in case you haven't seen them! (Very much NSFW)

September bonus illustration poll 💖

Time to decide a prompt for this month's bonus illustration!
Thanks for all that submitted a request!

The poll is set to end by 9/24. (You can vote for more than one prompt!)

Some of my existing OC references can be found here!
My own additions to the poll are marked with **.

(nsfw) Cereza sketchpage!

A colored sketch page commission for Cereza!
She asked for me to come up with the poses and outfits, so I went for a mix! The bottom left and top right poses are cosplay/parodies of Cure Nyammy and Sorceress [Dragon's Crown], respectively) 💜

bunny emotes!

A set of emotes for Jamie featuring her bunny character! I had a lot of fun with these! Some of them are based off ones I made of Ciaran a while back, and some of them are new. My favorite is probably the coffee emote ☕

(nsfw) moo v2

For practice (trying out some new brushes and techniques) I decided to redraw this picture of my OC Brighid from 2020! She/they pronouns. 🍼 It's been too long since I drew her!
I'd love to hear what you all think about the coloring style in this new version! 💖

kissy emotes

Some cute little emote comms for Dasterin! For an anniversary gift. 🥺💜 (She/her for both characters)
I want to do more emotes like this now because they're so precious...

(nsfw) we're sweaty anyway, so...

The winning prompt for this month was "a couple trans dog girls frotting to beat the heat"! On the bottom is my character beast (she/they/it pronouns. She's half-dog, half-dragon)
I made a new character (on top) for this illustration, but she still needs a name! She's a Cairn Terrier ✨

(nsfw) cooling off

Commission for Juniemint! She/they pronouns. 🐱💦

(nsfw) good kitty!

A sketch page commission (+color and shading) for twoheadedenby! They/them pronouns. 
I always enjoy drawing their character and I think this page turned out pretty cute! (And lewd.) I hope you all enjoy it too :3

foxy knowledge

A gift piece for my friend and Vtuber child Cereza's birthday! The pose/composition is a parody of Patchouli Knowledge's Touhou Lost World portrait. 💜

💖Patreon bonus poll for August!

Time to decide a prompt for this month's bonus illustration!
Thanks for all that submitted a request! I've added a few extra things this month as well :3

The poll is set to end by 8/25. (You can vote for more than one prompt!)

Some of my existing OC references can be found here!
My own additions to the poll are marked with **.

(nsfw) at the inn

A commission for ackwell! Wuk Lamat and their FFXIV OC, she/her pronouns for both. 💜
(Wuk Lamat is depicted as a trans woman, and their OC is cis.)

Ackwell requested I add a background, so I tried to make it feel nice and atmospheric despite being a sketch comm. I had fun with it, and I hope it turned out well! (❁´◡`❁)

(I'm still open for commissions like this, btw! Here's a quick link to the vgen listing :D)

beach babe testament

The other half of the bonus illustration - Testament from Guilty Gear Strive (they/them)! I've been experimenting with more saturated colors and sharper lines and had fun playing around with that in this one! I'd love to hear what you all think of this one :3

beach babe testament

The other half of the bonus illustration - Testament from Guilty Gear Strive (they/them)!
I've been experimenting with more saturated colors and sharper lines and had fun playing around with that in this one! I'd love to hear what you all think of this one :3

Chef Stella

Some artwork I did for Stella's cooking streams that she's started doing! 💖
First image is with some Japanese style croquettes, and the second one is sundubu-jjigae.
https://www.twitch.tv/stellastrega_vt