My obsession with this game is still on. Like for real, I never have this for YEARS (except for my own boys). It's just 7/7 24/24h on my mind, I read fanfics, I sketch, I talk to others fans, it's just... I DUNNO ??? Especially Clive (the main character) and Cid (THE PERFECT HUSBAND).
I wanted to fight it and to draw some of my boys or even some Dragon Age but in the end, I think It's better if I just roll with it for a little longer. Cause it feels good to be so fuel motivated by something you know ? It's even a little too much but I'm gonna enjoy the moment.
I'm sorry in advance if you're here only for a specific thing tho ! In 2 or 3 weeks, my boys will be back cause I've got a book planned with them for December (so Clive and Cid and all the others will have to stay silent in my head or I'll cry). So until it, well, sorry but I'm gonna spam a little about "Firestorm" babies.
After a rough month of June, a sleepy July... Here I am, drawing again and finally finishing this line ! The fact that it was supposed to be my special Valentine drawing hurts quite a lot but he, better late than never I presume ?
Well, here's my babies, at Garrett's home (plants and books are his thing). I hope you like it ! I don't even know if I want to colour it and to put only greyscales on it... Not sure.
Well, now I need to finish the NSFW comic with them ! And I need to move quick as my hand seems to cooperate atm... ! My brain is still focusing only on FF16 so it's... Something. At least I can warm my hand sketching idiot things with FF boys but I dunno if you're interested by them or if I should just post it on the discord maybe ?
Well, see you soon my lovelies ! I'm glad I'm back on tracks again !
Hello everyone ! I hope you all have some days off / vacations to enjoy the summer !
As you may have noticed, I wasn't really active on July here. That's why I'm gonna pause the patreon billing on August (meaning that you won't pay anything until the 1st September) in compensation !
Unfortunately I was DEAD tired after June. Physically and mentally. The conventions killed me even if Dokomi was AMAZING ! Seriously I was so happy. It's officially my biggest convention ever and I've met incredible people, dear followers or mutuals and artists and it was great. But once at home, the tiredness kicked me in the face and despite my will, I was unable to do much more. I tried to finish 3 illustrations (2 sfw and 1 nsfw) as planned but I... quite failed. I needed more time to rest and spent time reading or playing. And with the temperature being around 30°C here it was totally impossible for me to concentrate. I still sketched some FF16 stuff but it's not so serious so nothing to really share unfortunately ! Or maybe later to avoid spoilers !
Btw I must have done a new before, I'm so sorry...
Well, for the moment, I'm packing my stuff to leave tomorrow for one FULL week of vacation in Holland (omg !! My first vacation since... 4 years ?!). I'm excited and ready to fully rest for once !
I hope to still see you there after the week and despite my silence ! I can't wait to work again more peacefully and fully rested ! My little comic is still WIP and will come in September if I'm doing it right !
See you soon my lovelies and take care of you and your loved ones !
As I couldn't decide who I prefer between Vash x Wolfwood or Vash x Knives I decided to go for both actually !
I hope you'll like it ! My hand is on fire now cause I have to send the files today to the printers to be ready for Dokomi ! Urgh I wish I could finish some OCs drawings too but unfortunately it will be for the Ycon then !
But don't worry, my next drawing will be Cesar and Garrett as it's 80% done already !
I hope you're all doing great and thanks for sticking with me !
Garrett's slowly turning into his full werewolf form while having some fun with Cesar is... Something. Well, our dear vamp is quite happy here don't worry for him, he's enjoying his life atm !
Well, time to return to sketch the comic hehe I can't wait to do more with them !
I'm happy I was able to finish this one in time for Dokomi ! I stopped playing Zelda long ago (the one with... Wolf Link ???) but Sidon ? A FISH PRINCE ? Count me in.
Well, I've send all of this to the factory and now I'm gonna wait in front of the door.
Joking ! I'm already working on new drawing ! I'm planning for June to finish my nsfw of Garrett and Cesar, doing the Barbie meme, finishing my Valentine drawing of them... Well, seems like this month will be Garrett and Cesar's one !
Thanks a lot btw for sticking with me <3 Your support means so much here... I'm all amazed <3
If I should play the game, it will be for these two, really ! I mean, LOOK AT ITTO BABY ?! He seems so himbo, I'm sold. And a angry little pup general of war ? Sold again. Btw as I've said before, I'm working on some stuff for conventions. And this one was planned long before. I hope you'll like it even if (such as me) you don't know a single thing about Genshin !
I'd love to do a little standee or a keychain of Cesar and Garrett but I think it's a little... Too soon ? Like, I know you like them (and it makes me reaaaaaally happy, believe me !) but I'm scared to do merch of them before the comic so... I'll wait a little more I think !
Well, goodnight ! I'm happy I worked well, I deserve some sleep haha !
I'm back from Fantasy Basel (a not-very-small-anymore convention in Switzerland) and now I'm running to send prints and merch to the factory to get all in time for Dokomi ! But... I still have to take 1 or 2 days to rest so I just sketched some stuff here and there, tidy my apartment and the suitcase... But I'm quite happy with the sketch of Vash finally receiving some love from Wolfwood and his (dickhead) brother ! Maybe I'll clean it a little more after !
Now I've got to work on several drawings such as Genshin keychain, 2 new drawings of Cesar and Garrett and a new short comic with them (I KNOW I'VE SAID I SHOULD BEGIN THE REAL COMIC WITH THEM BUT DOKOMI FIRST SO SHORT COMIC AGAIN OK ? ;A; ).
Can't wait to be at Dokomi but the summer break is gonna be great to work on my REAL stuff !
Well, sorry for the long chat, I hope you're all doing fine !
It's my very late commission for the lovely AshalsDream featuring The Iron Bull and their Inquisitor Sari ! It was a delight to draw Bull again (despite his stupid tattoos all around URGH).
This one conclude my last series of commissions back from... December 2021 (yep, when I tell I was quite late, I mean it). It means that I'll probably open it again for 1 or 2 this summer but for the moment, I'm too busy with conventions, I have a giveaway to prepare and a certain vampire on fire ready to be draw sooo... Just wait a little more !
I maaaay have liked a little bit too much the new Trigun anime (don't mind me singing the opening, I think it's one of the main reason that I don't livestream my drawings hahaha).
And even if I loved all the characters, I have to admit that I love Knifes. Poor baby. It's so lonely and all he's got is his brother. He's the bad guy in the story but I can't stop thinking that he's not so wrong (look what humans do to their sister...).
Well, their marks here are all wrong I just liked the glowing effect haha ! I hope you'll enjoy the drawing as colouring is still A REAL PAIN IN THE A... *cough* Sorry.
Well, I'm glad I can finish full drawing again ! It feels GOOD.
Unfortunately for our dear Cesar, Garrett wasn't here last night (he had to work and you'll see soon where exactly). I began this little silly thing while I was in full artblock but I decided to finally finish it ! And now you can see Gadrel's face ! My little Incubus (he's like a puppy with Cesar and our vamp has to restrain himself a lot for not killing him... BUT he enjoys to drink with him at least !). As you can see, Cesar can have a total human form to hide his supernatural features ! The same for Gadrel but the alcohol makes it a little bit more difficult for him...
Now time to stop "losing" time on this little comic strips and to go for the real comic ! I'm kinda scared but LET'S GO ! I must do it now !
Not sure which ones I'm gonna finish first ! What do you think ? The Genshin one is supposed to be turned into a keychain for the upcoming convention (need to do a Cesar and Garrett one too !). The idiotic drinking Cesar is part of a very small comic including Gadrel (the little incubus) so I hope to finish it soon !
Btw I wanna thank you all for sticking with me ! Your support means a lot these days with all the mess around so it amaze me to see you there ! I'm gotta draw even more for you !!
Omg you can't imagine HOW MANY LAYERS, TRIALS AND ERRORS I DID WITH THIS DRAWING until I "quite" like it. I wanted to try but I was too difficult for me in the end BUT... I'm proud to be done with it and despites its many flaws, I'm quite happy how it turned ! So I hope you like it too !
After all the mess in the lasted chapters of My Hero Academia, I think these 2 deserved some rest and peace.
Can you believe that... This stupid meme gave me urgent need to draw Cesar ? Like seriously ? I was peacefully scrolling on twitter (PEACEFULLY I SAID, OK?!) and suddenly I was sketching my babies like I was possessed.
Well. Here it is. As usual, my baby vamp needs attention and he loves to not listening to Garrett.
So well. Agrougrou.
I hope you missed them a little cause... I missed them a lot on my side !
For my April drawing, I decided to return on my BNHA ship that deserve a moment of peace for them... Aka Endeavor and Hawks. This ship receives a lot of hate at convention but I don't care, I love them...
So here's the WIP ! I hope to finish it for next week ! So I hope you'll like them <3
Hello everyone ! Thanks a lot for sticking with me and for your patience ! Thanks for your messages and sweet comments too, it means so much to me you cannot imagine !
Well, the break was much needed. I didn't even know how much I was tired before. I was totally OFF. I was totally spiralling down and I was just in full deny like "naaaaah, I just need a couple of days off, it will be okay". IT WAS NOT OKAY AT ALL.
Please, take care of you, if you need to talk to your beloved ones or if you need a real break from internet DO IT. We're always joking with our mental heath but hey, it's not so funny when everything seems suddenly grey around us.
Well, I'm back. My pup is fine again too (FINALLY !!!). Even my GF is doing better ! I'm still adjusting some things there and there but I'm finally listening to myself and fixing some limits to my retails job... Things must be better now.
And you know what ? I miss drawing. SO BE READY MY LOVELIES CAUSE I'M BACK ON TRACK !
As you may have noted, I was full silent on February. That's why I paused the Patreon's fees, you won't be charged until I'll share anything new there so don't worry about it ! I've got many reasons for it but I'll be short : I need a social media break to focus on myself again.
At the end of January, I couldn't draw anymore and it hurt. It hurts cause lately I'm on a lot of stress and being able to draw was nearly the last thing I had for myself. So when I stopped and it was worst cause I was feeling guilty to not be working. Even if I try to keep standing, last years were complicated with so many losses, I feel like maybe I didn't take time to fully grief and maybe it's time to do it.
Internet is a wonderful place where I've found you and a lot of amazing persons but it drained me. I mostly draw for me but lately when I was working, I couldn't stop myself thinking things like "ho I hope I'll get at least 100 notes on this one !", "maybe I need to post more colours to be noticed ?", "I should draw more of X and Y to get some views", "Omg I didn't post for 2 days, I'm gonna lose visibility !"... AND I HATE THIS. I hate this mindset, it's not me. Of course I want to share my drawings with you but... I should draw for myself first ! And playing the algorithm game on t/witter or Ins/ta isn't what I want to do.
I want to draw, not to make "content".
So I'll post only there. And without pressure, only things I WANT. I hope to be back on tracks for my birthday... Yeah, middle life crisis haha ! But I feel I really need it. So as I've said on top, the fees will be stopped until I'm fully back as I don't want to put any pressure on myself until I feel fully ready ! I want to be happy drawing, not feeling forced to.
See you soon and sorry for the silent month ! I can't wait to be ready to share happily with you again. Maybe I'll be back with more comics ?? Who knows ! I'm already excited and I miss drawing, feels like a good point already, no ?
Did you read these books by KJ Charles ?! Cause I've just finished the third and last one about Stephen - a smoll little witch - and Crane - a very rich and handsome earl - and I can't stop thinking about these two since then ! So well. Here's a little sketch of them I hope to finish cause I NEED ART OF THEM.
Btw I'm THIS CLOSE to finish all my commissions back from 2021 and 2022, I'm deeply sorry if you're waiting on yours, it will come next weeks I hope ! I'm nearly done with all my stuff (I dunno how I did it but IT'S DONE) so this is really the end of waiting !
See you maybe tomorrow for a nsfw drawing hehehe !
Here's a quiet and peaceful moment between my boys... Well, at least for a little instant, cause ofc Cesar was dreaming of food and well, shit happens as we said ! But don't worry, Garrett is fine (until next time !). As we were talking on the discord, I love drawing quiet moment with them too, not only sexual moments (even if I LOVE spicy actions) ! I'd like to share more about their relationship that's why I'm studying a lot comic at the moment cause it's really my goal here : to be able to draw their story. It may be dumb and not serious at all but I want to do it ! So let's improve !
I really need to do a stamp with the scars of Garrett cause actually I'm a mess to draw them.
I should be able to catch all my delay next week if I keeping drawing like this ! Yeaaah ! Until then, well, I hope you like my boys there and I wish you a nice weekend !
Ho gooooosh Garrett is actually from... 2008 ! Yes, my dear little pup was actually one of my teenage OC ! But his story was a lot different than now and believe me, it's WAY better with Cesar around (our little vampy is from 2022). SO I've found this very old drawing of him and I was like "OH MYYYY I WAS SO PROUD OF ME COLOURING HIM !". Really ! I did a pencil sketch and coloured it on Photoshop for hours, I was so happy !
I was a masochist back then cause now colouring isn't my best friend anymore. And I KNOW I have to work on myself to not ask TOO MUCH of me. I'm learning, so by now, it's time to stop working on this drawing. I'm proud of some part, not fully satisfied with some others but I have to continue if I want to progress ! This time I worked on ClipStudioPaint (and finished it on photoshop).
I hope you'll like it too btw hehe !
And welcome news followers, it's a pleasure to see you around !
Ps: You may have a little following sketch of this drawing soon cause Garrett looks obviously too serious there. I need... A certain vamp to say something idiot about it.
I hope you all had a nice little break or that you were at least able to rest a couple of days with your loved ones !
As I've previously said, I'm back at drawing FINALLY ! The little break helped me a lot and I was missing drawing so... I think it's a good start ! I've got some drawings to finish and the commissions are nearly done so... Yeah !
Well, to begin, here's Cesar to celebrate as I was missing him. And yes, Garrett's a little too pure for Cesar sometimes but he'll learn (or at least, he'll manage to survive).
I've used Pan's 3D model (@/kamitokatachi on twitter) for the pose. I hope you'll enjoy them and that you missed a little my two idiots too !
You - may - have noticed that I went nearly full silent last month... Long story short : artblock and work at the shop.
In the beginning of December, I attended the Ycon, a French LGBTQI+ Convention and things WERE GREAT. Really, I had so much fun, so much love, it was overwhelming. And back home I had so many orders from my shop it was amazing, people made me cry of happiness, sincerely. But after a few day, my anxiety came back in full force and I was unable to draw. I disliked everything, I was feeling like a fraud and went really down morally. My hand was shaking everytimes I tried to draw anything and I was getting envious of others. Believe me I HATE THIS FEELING. On top of that I was supposed to be working only 15-20h max per week at the shop since November but life being life, I'm still at 30-45h. And believe me, it makes a BIG difference especially at Christmas when the working days in the shop are nearly 10-12h long shift when I spend the days running from customers to customers without even time to rest in between. So even if I did less than last year (where I ended up totally broken after 200h of work in one month), I'm still tired as hell.
So I have to think about solutions cause I can't stay crying in the corner. It's not me, I deserve better, you too ! 2022 was a strange year, I've got a lot of conflicted thoughts about it but, hey, I'm still here. Amazing people like you are still around so things aren't so bad. So here's what I'm gonna do : I'm gonna pause my Patreon's fees for the next month. What does it means for you ? Just that you won't be charged on the 1st January but I'm still gonna post drawings here. I'll use this month to catch up on rewards for the previous months (drawings and suggestions !) and to finish my 2022 commissions.
I'm lucky enough to be financially good for January because of the convention and my shop. Thanks to YOU ! I'm gonna take the next days to really rest for once cause I need it. I feel like I was nearly burning myself again because my anxiety never hit me so hard and so quick than this month. So I'm gonna take time for me, to read, to relax in front of a movie or anything, just not thinking "I have to draw something". No, a real break this time.
So until next week, I wish you the best, I hope you've got perfect holidays with your beloved and time to rest ! Take care of you and everyone you love and see you very soon my lovelies for new drawings, new stories and... A better start this time as I FINALLY HAVE LESS JOB AT THE SHOP YES !
June
Ps: Sorry for the long blathering, I want to be fully transparent with you !
I thought I would have more time to draw the last week but... I was consumed by stress and unable to stay focus. I still have sketches to finish but I think... It's gonna be a little bit delayed onto December as I'm off to convention next weekend (YCon8 at Paris !). So you're gonna have double posts on December ! So for tonight, here's a little sketch of Cesar and Garret, part of a small comic I'm still working on ! I hope you'll like them !
Feel free to follow me cause I'll do some public announcements about my shop, commissions and conventions ! First I need to say that all my stuff will stay free on Twitter / Instagram / others.
This page is just here to serve me like a tip jar for people liking my works and wanting to financially support me. For small one-time tips, I still have my ko-fi and for physical goods, I've got my shop !
I won't lie, as I reduced my time of work at the Shop, I hope Patreon will help me a little even if I'm planning to really work on my commissions next year. In other hand, I hope you've got fun there, I'm planning a lot of nice drawings, a lot about my dear Original Characters (Garrett and Cesar, some of you may have heard of them if you follow me since this summer...) and I can't wait to share all of them with you !
So... See you around lovely sweeties ! ♥ And welcome with a very big thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the dear ones who'll decide to pledge on my little silly drawings !
