CarissaExplainsNothing

Privacy

A friend recently said to me that people are entitled to their secrets. Yes, there are harmful secrets or secrets that cannot be held for other people because of the damage they could cause. But se...

Empowerment vs Exploitation

My photos and videos were stolen, sent to people, and possibly posted on the “dark web” and other places without my consent (obviously). Facing this level of abuse and exploitation has been one...

Why I Didn’t Speak Up

I didn’t speak up for so long because I thought no one would believe me.

Bullied by creators with larger social accounts than I had, they believed they had more influence than me so they wo...

Black is my favorite color

(Yes, I know black is a shade… not a color 😂)

I might have to wear black lipstick more often. That is all. 😆 Happy Monday!

Labyrinth

On New Year’s Day I went to my Unitarian Universalist church to walk the labyrinth. I’ve never done this before, but I really enjoyed the experience.

I took a little stone at the beginnin...

I Love Men

I wrote something on Threads recently that caused a little bit of a stir. Thought I’d share it here, in case you missed it.

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I was thinking about men and why I’m still drawn t...

New Podcast Episode!

I’m back on the Focus on Your Own Family podcast talking about purity culture, abuse, empowerment, objectification, and the time that I was an “OF” creator*. 2024-01-06 01:29:49 +0000 UTC View Post

Wishing you a happy new year ❤️❤️❤️

I’ll be Happy Again

There were just a few very brief moments this year when I felt peaceful and happy. Early May, then again in November. These were beautiful times of hope and looking forward to the future. Unfortuna...

Merry Christmas or Whatever 💋

The Ex Pastor’s Wife

I wasn’t that good at being a pastor’s wife. But really, the expectations were such that few people could ever live up to them without ending up at a total breakdown.

The worst time of th...

Telling on Myself

Yes, I had an “Onlyfriends.” No, I do not anymore.

Why the hell am I telling you this now?! Because although I used a pseudonym, kept that little side hustle separate from my ...

Fine, I’ll Do It Myself

“I do it myself” was the first sentence I ever spoke as a toddler and from what I’ve been told it was my favorite sentence long after. I’ve always had an independent spirit.

Still, wh...

Not responsible for the actions of others

I am only responsible for what I do and say. If anyone else believes lies about me and acts out based on those lies, that is not my error to correct.

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Was any of it even real?

One of the most difficult things about recent (18 months) happenings in my life is how a very bad person got to me in such a personal way that they were able to confuse me about reality. I’m at a...

I did the scary thing and I was thinking of you

The victim advocate explained the process to me so I would know what I was about to do and make an informed decision. I was shaking and crying thinking about what I was about to commit to doing. I ...

Fixing What I Didn’t Break

I pinned an older video on Instagram and TikTok (you can watch it in one of those places) of me talking about how I was realizing how I try to fix things I didn’t break. Always trying to protect ...

I Sing Better Alone

I don’t have the most beautiful singing voice ever, I am aware. But singing in front of other people has always been an issue for me. I’m way more timid and my voice is smaller and weaker. I’...

Not Fragile

I’m sensitive, sweet, and empathetic… not fragile.

Abandoned

I don’t have an irrational fear of abandonment, I have evidence.

I recently posted this on Threads:

Seeking connection and fear of abandonment cause me to abandon my own self in purs...

What Do You Deserve?

Recently I sent a text to someone who hurt me to tell him what I had actually deserved in that relationship. It ended up being a good exercise for me in recognizing how I should be treated, by myse...

Update

Hello,

I want to thank you all so much for being here. The support has meant more than I can express.

I have been subjected to incredibly cruel stalking and harassment for a year and th...

There Was a Fire

Well, I was going to post a bunch of new content yesterday and even said so on Threads. Then the whole row of townhomes next to mine caught on fire and things got chaotic. 😳 I’m okay, but it w...

Questioning

A community where questions are discouraged or even punished is really more of a cult than much else. Yet that is exactly the experience so many of us have in church. Questioning why we believed wh...

What is Respect?

We had an interesting conversation on Threads and Instagram this week about respect. I called out that it feels like oftentimes when men speak about respect it’s a different definition of that wo...

An Actual Person

I joined Threads as soon as I heard about the new social media app a few months back. It was really fun and exciting at first, as new things tend to be. Many people start on a new app and then stop...

Daylight Saving?

Well, apparently the time changed today… and I missed it. 😂 This is what happens when you’re super busy, work from home, and often lose track of the days of the week.

At least I truly ...

No Bad Angle

Anyone else often feel self conscious about camera angles? It’s wild how different we look in pictures depending on the angle of the camera. Especially being a “bigger woman” I known which ca...

One Thing After Another…

Does it ever feel like it’s one crisis right after the other? I was talking with a family member who has been going through so much. They were making plans to visit me after they had a short hosp...

Happy PSL Day

It’s the most wonderful day of the year… Pumpkin Spice Latte is back at Starbucks. 😂

In honor of this occasion I decided to wear a Starbucks green dress and play my usual Spice Girls r...