[Esc] reality

October Livechat 2

Thank you to everyone who was able to join :) It was fun to chat with you all. Until next month!

Come hang out tonight, 8PM Berlin time - remember the stupid confu...

☯️ Dry Brushing & Body Oil ☯️ [Virtual Spa]

Version without music here. 

Hi guys, I'm happy to finally publish this beast of a video. I may not be able to cure m...

October Livechat 1

Thanks to everyone who could join - same time next week cause I completely skipped September :) 

Today at 8PM Berlin time (in 3 hours) - join me for a casual hangout, ra...

Sneak Peek

Hey guys. I just wanted to post a little preview of the video I'm working on before the valerian root kicks in and I can hopefully get some rest. The obnoxious family aren't home yet and I hope the...

post-heartbreak follow-up

Hi guys. This is gonna be an update post after I inadvertently left you at heartbreak last time. Thank you so much for your kind words and support regarding my experience. I didn't think so many of...

30 Hours

I'm heartbroken.

If I told you about the nightmare of a trip I've had, you wouldn't believe me. I wouldn't believe me. But this happened to me. The last 28 hours have been the worst experienc...

⛥October Download⛥

Your complementary downloads :) Thank you super tier

⛥September Q&A⛥

It's tea and answering your questions time! You know, only my favorite time in the world. Thank you for submitting all your incredible questions - this time I have to make some alterations to them ...

life update

Soon I'll see my love again.

Last we saw each other, we decided it would be better (and a lot less painful) for our relationship if we didn't wait a year or longer...

September 2019 Vlog

Greetings mega tier and above! I hope you like your choice for a bonus video this month :) I'm a little overworked lately with travel plans on top of everything else and this is a day in my life wh...

Ally's USA Bucket List

As our plans to marry and move are progressing, I can't help but get a little excited to start a new life on a new landmass. I want to make this list to actively add to and cross things off because...

OUTTAKES - Down By The River ☽

Finally done! I can clear my head for the next video now :)

Like if you laughed XD

Down By The River ☽

I did not go with "Super hot witch melts your troubles away ASMR" nor "Sexy wet witch helps you release!" which are both titles Jack came up with when I couldn't decide. He insists that they are te...

A Prayer To The Earth

August has been a hell of a month for so many people I know. I, myself, have been through an unexpected, thankfully brief, suicidal phase last month. Many people experience pressure and burden that...

Sneak Peek

"Tell your patrons what you're working on" - a magical experience. 

Recently I hit a wall and learned that the reason why I can't go on making videos like I used to is because I don't wa...

⛥August Q&A⛥

Hello and happy September! I started writing this post yesterday but then I got interrupted by bridges I should have burned a long time ago stealing my energy and focus. I hope you didn't mind wait...

⛥August Download⛥

Both Spa videos by default because I want to keep up the goal of 3 or more every month :) Enjoy

Up Close And Personal Vlog

This was the default thumbnail. I hope you don't mind this vlog is ridiculously long for some reason. (Some reason = I talk too much) 

I couldn't think of anything more I'd want to cut o...

August LiveChat

LiveUpdate: Streaming in less than 30 minutes! I'm all set here :) 

This Saturday, August 31st at 10PM Berlin time. 

I've been pro...

Why I Create

"Why do you create?" Is often one of the questions Patreon throws out whenever I start a post, in case I want to start writing something and have no idea what to write. That never happens. Maybe it...

Luxury Coffee Body Scrub

[Version without music] 

I'm happy to bring to you a(nother) cozy Spa soundscape! Sorry this was the best I could do ...

Coming Soon

Here's a little sneak peek of the next (probably) video. 

So... I've been having a hell of a month. I feel like I need to excuse myself and say sorry for having a terrible month that has...

Losing Yourself in the Digital Age

I wrote this text a couple nights ago when I found the source of this lingering feeling of lack of fulfillment. As I'm reviewing it again and about to post, it's a Saturday night and after a lo...