Meredith

writing in september

words from september 19 2022

angel, witch, god, satan, elf, fairy, butterfly.
which story will you dive in today?
can we just become a stick?
a leaf?
a droplet of water.
can w...

christmas morning.

the unknowing is the all-knowing

is every hurt or pain always a mis-communication?
is every suffering that is created in the world, from a lack of a full picture.
if we could see everyones full life,
be in their shoes, 2023-01-08 22:39:49 +0000 UTC View Post

what else can i let go?

i’m letting go of it all.
what i have been telling myself for ages now.
let go, meredith.
let go.
if i let it go, i let it GROW.
imagine,
a world where we all were constantl...

i keep changing my mind.

i keep changing my mind.

or i’m simply living,
and realizing,
i was wrong.
oops, i was wrong again.
when will it finally sink in,
that i know nothing?

the knowi...

no cell service. no wifi. just the way i need it.

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I canceled my phone plan
and I moved into a house that doesn’t have wifi,
and I plan on keeping it that way.
Last night was my first night sleeping here.
it is 5:16AM
and...

maybe we are the flowers?

maybe we are the flowers.
maybe we are the ones who need to come alive
and bite
and strangle a little bit of life
to create new life.
maybe we need to strangle a little bit of our de...

from february 20 2022

i want me.

i love me.

i thought sleeping alone would be the hardest part of separating.

but instead it has been a way back to myself.

finger tip against finger ti...

ready.

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1:20 am

awake for hours now.

my body hurts so bad.

i feel it feel it feel it.

i breathe breathe breathe.

i know i know i know.

i’ll raise the mone...

"maybe nothing's what i need"

life begets life begets life, but is what we are all doing, living?

171222

i get it

i do

new laces

new shoes

new turtleneck

new treadmill

new day of desire

desire poured into the things you’re told to crave.

what is feedom anyway?

161222 4:01am

everything i wish to do in the world, i wish to do for free.

because i want to,

because i love to.

i wish to create a free food co-op

a free bed and brea...

why am i always swimming against it?

151222 4:20am

just fall into the current. why am i always swimming against it.

the life i dream of, he says, i have it.

i photograph, he says, so i know that if i look ...

defeated and depleted

141222 5:01 am

in the bath at moms.

completely defeated and depleted.

but i’ll regain; somehow.

i want the water as hot as it can be.

this doesn’t really make sens...

sometimes it takes a little

time

riddled with riddles (version 2)

a photo for everyone.

i'm riddled with riddles

juliet

expired roll of film that i shot of juliet in malibu - someone else took the photos of the mysterious helicopter and windmills <3

her patreon is linked below 😍

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is our technology making us feel less real?

is our technology making us feel less real? could technology be something that brings us closer to nature and not further away from it?

also the type of technology we keep pursuing...

more video screenshots from this past weekend

little notes from who-knows-when-in-november

there is a way to evolve and not cause harm.

there is a way to move through nature causing as little harm as possible and still going light years faster in growth with technology.<...

video screenshot

work work working

how can I not be changing the way I think

September 26 2022

you know how many times I change my mind?
a-fucking-lot.
every day.
and how can we not?

every single day is a brand new day,
every single day brings br...

just collapse into it.into all of it

fall into it.

into all of it.

into the oceans

and the rivers

and the tears

and the pain

and the kisses

and caresses

and every good thing.

it is...

mutual compassion

yes

mutual compassion.

no two people will ever have the same conversation, the same understanding.

no two people will ever feel the same way,

think the same way.

it’...

when will we wake up?

November 22 2022


putting nalcoah to sleep tonight she asked me “when will we wake up?”
and I said, “when it is light out, when the sun comes up.”
she said “why when the ...

ya'llllll i don't think this was the right decision.

not that it was the wrong decison, but maybe it wasn't THE decision.
Maybe not the thing to be acted on, or maybe not carried on...?

I'm learning...

Changing it all up

I'm changing a lot that is going on here.
It may seem and feel and even be a little chaotic at first.
I want you to all know, you are welcome to send me constructive criticism.
I need all ...

i only want exposure to humans and plants

September 26 2022

life often feels too overwhelming.
whether it be overwhelming pain,
or overwhelming love and beauty.

lately it’s been overwhelming interest
and curiosit...