January Update.

hello my sweet darling <3

TL;DR: there will be a January episode! thank you for your patience.

if you don't follow my other socials like tik tok or instagram, you probably haven't heard much from me since my last update. dont worry! i'm always here.

with your permission, i'd like to yap for a second, and be a little vulnerable...

getting back on track has been uncomfortable to say the least, but uncomfortable = growth in a lot of cases, so i've been trying to take it in stride.

i'll have an episode out for January. i worried about putting it out without the stuff i needed first bc after Episode 6-7 (the last time i put out an incomplete episode for time), i promised never to put out an episode i wasnt fully satisfied with.

the downside of that is i struggle with doing what's best for me/my story vs what's best for "business". and that's the biggest struggle i think of doing this full time lol.

maintaining artistic integrity while allowing yourself to just be a person is a lot LOOOL. i sometimes think my life would be a whole lot easier if all i cared about was money or popularity lol. those things are simple to me and have a simple solution.

i care most about connection with you, and being able to tell my story in the best way i can.

i welcome this challenge bc i've never been happier doing anything in my life, and bc of you, i'm able to do it passionately.

the truth is that i lack discipline and need to get over myself but let's just...skim over that... LOL

i'm learning things about myself every day.

ALSO THANK YOU TO THE KIND WARLORDS ON TIK TOK LIVE THAT SUGGESTED WE GIVE SATO A DELUSION MOMENT. I NEVER CONSIDERED GIVING HIM ONE SINCE I WANTED TO MAINTAIN HIS MYSTERY, (AND ALSO BC I DONT WANT YALL TO WORRY ABOUT HIM LMAO), BUT I REALIZE WE DESERVE IT AFTER ALMOST 2 WHOLE SEASONS OF NOT BEING ABLE TO KNOW WHAT HE'S THINKING.

let's get a little self-indulgent this episode... we deserve it...