Feel Better Journey #1

Hey you!

I hope you're doing well and that life isn't too hard on you lately.

The pandemic has been tougher on all of us than we can even imagine and I had to be reminded this the hard way the other day. 

_ Long story short, I embarrassed myself like I couldn't even imagine in front of someone I kind of liked but barely knew. I showed him a side of me that I had no idea existed and had to admit that if I showed it, it meant it very well existed (I'll have to tell you the story one day, 'cause gosh, it's a funny one...)

I don't know for you, but personally I can't move on from a negative experience without understanding the lesson I can take away from it and make a turn. So after a few days blaming myself excessively for being broken, I decided that I could just start from there and work on my healing, one day at a time. 

And because I am bad at doing stuff alone but the pandemic forces me to be very much alone, I'll documente this Feel Better Journey and share it on the internet, just in case it can help people and keep me motivated (like I do with everything ahah). This video of Jeneration DIY definitely convinced and inspired me.

My ultimate goals are to reconnect with my vulnerability, stop hiding behind my ego, and feeling more fulfilled in general. We'll see how it translates in my daily life.

I know long term progress take patience and dedication and I hope I'll be able to maintain my efforts on the long run :)

I am a strong believer that the best apologies are changed behaviors and I would like to apologize to myself and this random guy - even if he probably doesn't give a damn fuck - for the weird moment we shared. But for this, I have to make sure I'll not be this version of me again. 

Having the idea of progress as my main focus is definitely so helpful so far. I've done stuff that I was delaying forever, been kinder to myself and others, got more excited about life, and that's quite a win already. Can't wait to see what's coming next.

I wish you a very special weekend!

Talk to you soon,

Flavie.