i didn't save takes i couldnt use often to save space.
for my next series, i'll be better about saving them! it's all a learning experience.
hope you enjoyed this lol. i finally posted the public youtube premiere page for the finale and felt a little nostalgic already, so i edited this to soothe myself a little lol.
hello my wonderful garden. thank you all for the support you've shown me so far. i feel like with doro, i was able to make my introduction and build a wonderful community with you all.
that being said, i fully intend to rework everything, down to the way i conduct my social media. because of my recent issues with youtube, i'm even more inclined to focus nearly all my efforts on patreon. this means more updates, more random posts (lol), and special stuff just for yall.
for this reason, i've decided to lower my main access tier and do away with the third tier. this is to hopefully make everything more accessible and less confusing for everyone.
so, ***effective whenever your next payment period is, all patrons of my medium tier will have their monthly payment automatically switched over to the cheaper price. there's no action required from you if you're a part of this tier!
as for my highest tier patrons, so i could avoid the hassle of anyone losing access to anything, i've simply unpublished the tier rather than deleting it. this disallows any new members from subbing to that tier but also keeps you from randomly having your access revoked. for my/highest tier, i recommend you switch to another tier or cancel/unsub, whichever suits your interests best, as there will be no benefits to the tier anymore ***after this pay period!!
if there's any confusion or anything, please feel free to drop me a DM or comment on this post.
i love you, i do! thank you so much for allowing me to do this full-time and helping me build this one-of-a-kind safe haven for all of us.
i'll see you soon with a special surprise for all my Rome/Trina fans!
BY THE WAY, THE YT PUBLIC PREMIERE HAS BEEN MOVED TO 08/02. YT TWISTED MY ARM AND I HAD TO REMOVE THE AUDIO FROM A RANDOM POINT IN THE VIDEO. LUCKILY ON PATREON, YOU GOT THE FULL VERSION WITH THE MUSIC I'D INTENDED.
EDIT: a bit of a typo in the original. there should only be 2 tier options, thorn and rose!
2025-07-30 18:11:12 +0000 UTC View Post
07/28 for PETAL tier, 08/02 for the public yt premiere.
go into this with no expectations. we're starting a new chapter.
1pm MST for my highest tier, 07/28 for main tier, and 08/01 publicly on yt. it's an hour long.
2025-07-25 13:24:18 +0000 UTC View Post
we're in the home stretch of filming the main scenes... i'm anxious, i don't want it to be over.
2025-07-10 23:18:56 +0000 UTC View Post
part of the reason everything's taking me so long is bc i'm too excited for my next project. to say i've been preparing is an understatement now...
the series has a new name, new concept, new aesthetic and some characters will be redone to reflect my style shift.
for DoRo, i should have a solid preview for you very soon, and the full episode before July is over. thank you for your patience and support! these last few months have been eye-opening. i'm fired back up and ready to show you all i've learned.
what do we think about king hiro? the way his crown sits makes me laugh i'm sorry. he's such a big little angry man lol.
idk why i love giving my male leads intense dads. but i think king hiro would probably slap Lars Sr. LOOOOOL
2025-07-10 18:31:48 +0000 UTC View PostNOTE: DO NOT SUB THROUGH THE APP STORE.
if the episode isn't here, it's because the full version is already free on youtube.
FULL DORO PLAYLIST
FULL LACRIMOSA PLAYLIST
DoRo Season 1, Episode 7 (Removed from Youtube)
[🌶️] DoRo🧡 Season 2, Episode 6 (Uncut Ver.)
[🌶️] DoRo🧡 Season 2, Episode 7 (Uncut Ver.)
[🌶️] DoRo 🧡 Season 2, Episode 8 (Uncut Ver.)
DoRo 🧡 S2 E9 Finale Part ONE (Uncut Ver.)
[🌶️] DoRo 🧡 S2 E10 Series Finale Part TWO (Uncut Ver.)
DORO
[🌶️] What If? [AU] 🧡 Wildcard!Penelope x BigBrother!Sato
[🌶️] Turn Off Your Phone! 🧡 Switch!Arrón x Iza
[🌶️] Scorpion Stinger [AU] Mafia!Sato x Wildcard!Penelope
[🌶️] Words of Affirmation 🧡 Kino Focus
[🌶️] Turn Off Your Phone! PART TWO🧡 Arrón x Iza
[🌶️] Scorpion's Delusion RAW Extended Cut
[🔞🔥] Double Stinger 🧡 Sato x Blue!Sato x Penelope
Do Not Disturb!! 📵 (Part One) | ARRÓN FOCUS
[🌶️] Turn Off Your Phone! PART THREE🧡 Arrón x Iza
[🌶️] Say My Name ‼️Rome(xTrina) Mini-logue
Girl Talk ❤️ A Girly Mini-logue
LACRIMOSA
2025-07-08 03:06:13 +0000 UTC View PostDoRo OUTTAKES/BLOOPER REEL
ALL DORO INTROS + TRAILERS
LACRIMOSA CHARACTER INTROS
OG CAST CHARACTER SHEETS
hey. i found this while looking for something else. it was originally for Mina but... no spoiler.
hope you can find use for it if you want, or just keep it as a souvenir.
it has 7 swatches but feel free to recolor and stuff.
converted from Persona
left middle ring category
SMALL WARNING: !!! like most accessories like this, it conflicts with almost all collared shirts. for my maxis match peeps, you have less to worry about. i tried to put the texture as out of the way as possible, but alas... !!! i did my best with the weight paint, but it'll prob still need to adjusted or morph a little.
ALT DL: SFS
2025-07-06 05:21:40 +0000 UTC View Post
i originally made these for Arron, but they don't look as cute on him 😔
named after my childhood crush hong yun-seong since i used his textures lol (and also someone whose work has kept me going for literal years at this point. i literally kept misspelling the word "rascal" because of her lol. she knows who she is!)
i needed some cute, bushy eyebrows for one of my characters from my series and thought i'd share in case anyone could use them.
RASCAL EYEBROWS N1
RASCAL EYEBROWS N2
RASCAL CONTACTS
thank you as always to MADMAN's sclera, found here: sclera, and Sims3Melancholic's catchlights, found here: catchlight.
ALT DL: SFS
2025-07-02 15:55:27 +0000 UTC View Post
hey. my wifi was out all day yesterday and my game was stuck at an infinite loading screen bc it needed to update lol. even if offline mode, i couldn't get it to open.
i worked on this so i wouldn't lose my mind. i hope you find use for it.
i'm in the creative zone rn, it's actually insane lol. haven't felt this fired up in a while.
everything was for personal use so they're very imperfect.
named after amy sorel, since i converted it from soul calibur 4.
thank you as always to MADMAN's sclera, found here: sclera, and Sims3Melancholic's catchlights, found here: catchlight.
thumbnails:
ALT DL: SFS
2025-07-01 15:38:15 +0000 UTC View Post
for those waiting on content, don't worry. i'm finally getting back into the swing of creating--this time, the healthy way. i love you, i'll have some previews for you very soon.
i really don't think these previews do them justice but...alas...🥀
i hope these can become your favorite set, like they've become mine.
there are 19 swatches.
as always, thank you to pyxiidis for her gorgeous catchlights, found here: catchlights, and MADMAN's sclera, found here: sclera.
hey. for those that didn't know, i previously had a side project i worked on, called "final_grl".
this was my maxis match account where i exclusively used + made maxis match CC.
i decided to retire it since i was starting to put pressure on myself by posting it publicly when it was supposed to be my private comfort.
it was one of my most favorite things to work on--no pressure or expectation, just pure art and fun.
because of the whole "sakura cherry blossom" aesthetic DoRo was using, i felt like i wasn't able to fully explore my obsession with all things macabre and dark, so i made "grimborn" as an outlet. it was about a girl named helena that was followed by death.
anyway, here's the CC if you want it, followed by all the stuff i converted/made for that page, in case anyone's interested. i don't gatekeep, i just can't be bothered. genuinely.
nothing's perfect; it was all meant for personal use.
for more previews, here's the tag on the fiinal_grl tumblr.
if you don't like the scleras on the contacts, as always i'll refer you to MADMAN'S SCLERA REPLACEMENTS.
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credits: the "fatal top" and "survivor's boots" are just mesh edits of the now-retired CosplaySimmer's conversions. the transparency issues were fixed by Staris!
hi everyone! the cast of DoRo is holding a graduation ceremony in the finale. this means a lot of background sims.
i figured i could take this moment to immortalize something for all of us.
if you want to submit your sim to appear in the background of the DoRo graduation ceremony, just upload them to the gallery with the hashtag "#ClassofDoro"!
RULES
CC or no CC is fine. if they're missing something i'll replace it to best of my ability.
i have no maxis match hair. if you're going to use it, please include the name of the hair and creator in the sim description.
no limits. they can look however, and you can post as many as you'd like. you can even use simselves. you can make teachers or students, even parents!
don't worry about clothing. everyone'll be wearing a cap + gown, or i'll redress them to fit my style.
deadline is like...a week? idk my work schedule is so erratic. i'll update this post.
EDIT**: I DECIDED I'LL BE USING THE GRADUATION GOWN + HAT FROM THE HIGH SCHOOL YEARS PACK!
i'm estimating that it'll be around an hour and 10 minutes, but it's only a guess. i wrote around **45+ pages of script lol. i've never filmed anything this long so idk how my PC is gonna act lol. i want to reward myself by upgrading it if it starts to stutter. i'm fully dedicated to this work.
we're gonna have to clear our schedules for that youtube premiere lol. sobbed writing it. i hope my energy will transfer.
2025-06-22 06:37:45 +0000 UTC View Post
hey love, can we talk? let's take off the gloves.
TW: mention of self-harm.
i'd like to think you're all here for deeper connection, to see the stripped back parts of my storytelling. i'll admit i thought that meant uncut episodes, scenes i'd deleted, behind the scenes posts... but i want to take this opportunity to make it more with unflinching honesty.
i have always had a fear of being seen. not just in my art, but in my life. wearing baggy clothes unless i was streaming, and for those that may not have known, i use "they/them" pronouns.
and this is because for the longest time, i denied my own femininity.
no, i'm not a man, not a woman, but something in between so i could protect myself.
this isn't to say that genderqueer and nonbinary identities don't exist, but i wore them like armor. i was a girl that was afraid to be pretty, to be feminine without performing femininity.
so i buy the pink headset, the pink clothes, the pink, heart-shaped microphone. i wear the pretty glittery makeup and the pink hair... i'm a pig in a dress performing "girl", and now i open my tik tok live chat asking how to create authentically. i'm a fraud but i don't know it yet.
lately, i've been pretty quiet online. i've been trying to listen to myself and my work. i've never been good at goodbyes, and now i have to write an ending. for those that know me, i've grappled with this ending in many, many different ways. but all this has forced me into a place i was running from, and that's true introspection.
i've been reflecting deeply, especially on the way i show intimacy, obsession, trauma...
when i created Lars and Penelope, i thought i was writing about love. if you go back and rewatch season 1, the tone feels like a daydream, like a pretty, cherry blossom fantasy of whirlwind romance. romeo and juliet style love where it's us against the world. others may think we're too intense, but they just don't get it.
i coveted this type of romance. an understanding between two people that others just won't get. i still do.
but i wasn't writing about love, i was writing about need. about loneliness cosplaying as loyalty. about codependence so tightly coiled it looked like devotion... the craziest part is i didn't fully see it until you did. reading the comments about how selfish Penelope is, how controlling Lars has become. and even then i pushed back, because a critique on them felt like a critique on me.
as most of you have already noticed, DoRo is painfully, unflinchingly autobiographical in nature. but this wasn't my intention. i wanted to comfort these parts of me, not directly write my pain onto the page.
Sato's need to control and be the "good-guy" hero all the time without realizing how he might harm others, Penelope's codependence and need to be obsessed over, her goody-goody model child upbringing and need to rebel, Arron's sensitivity and judgmental nature, his reservations around love and need for loyalty...
Kala's self-sabotaging and self-justifying nature, her feeling of being completely unlovable if people truly saw her, Kino's judgy nature and self-righteousness, Rome's need to silence himself and make himself smaller for others, his self-harm and fear of rejection...
Trina's prickly guardedness and cynicism, Iza's fear of being judged, Mina's need for validation and treating people like they're disposable, and even Mickey and his distrust of everyone, even those that have shown him nothing but care, patience, and consideration.
i speak through all of these characters, whether i noticed it or not. but i was in denial. the more people disliked "good" characters (like Lars, Pen, or Arron), and sympathized with "bad" characters (like Mina, Mickey, or Savi), the more i realized that "controlling" the narrative was out of the question. and this applied to my irl as well, where i always attempted to control the narrative about me and my writing. there should always be nuance.
the sex scenes were never physical to most of you. they were arguments, sometimes apologies, almost always a power play, desperate reaches for control. they were about being wanted, sometimes surveilled, always understood. emotion was my main focus... why are we naked like this? what does it mean? i don't want to be misunderstood. the characters are young and reckless and becoming, just like i was when i experienced this and wrote it.
i never set out to fetishize that or romanticize my own suffering. i don't market these tropes, i don't chase shock value for clicks. i've only ever wanted to comfort the part of me that was haunted by these things. how intimacy can sometimes be the most destructive language of all. i wanted to speak about it unflinchingly, not try to teach anyone anything but just admit that it was there, and do it honestly.
but self-awareness changes you. i liked to think i was exacting...every last thing was a detail i'd considered. but i can only speak from my own lens, which is cracked, full of bias, and dysfunction as well. i want to tell stories that feel honest and raw so that i may comfort anyone, let them know they aren't alone if they feel it too.
i share this not because i owe a defense, but because i believe in taking responsibility for what we make. you are not just here for early access, but to see the "why" behind the work. this is my why.
thank you for sticking with me while i figure this out in real time. i'm building something darker, wiser, more intentional, not softer but sharper and more precise.
this finale will mark a new era. i'm ready to bury the old world, and confront the new one with brutal honesty.
my performance was the cherry blossom. sweet, pink, dainty...people marvel it. but i'm more like a rose with thorns, wilting from mishandling. i've lost a little color but i don't hide from that. i grew from a crack in the hard ground, and i'm not ashamed to admit that. not everything is sweet and linear. i'm not afraid of any of that.
my stories have always been for the haunted, the outcasts, the overlooked, the raw-hearted, and those that felt too old for their bodies. i can't speak for us if i continue to play it safe.
i've renamed the tiers, but they're all the same. for those at my highest tier in the chat, i've renamed the chat as well. i'll see you very soon. i know you'll see me too. maybe for the first time.
-not KUREHA, just kureha.
2025-06-09 18:20:30 +0000 UTC View Post
hey. it's kureha.
** i only want to do my best. thank you all for your patience.
if no one's got you, know that i do.
i posted a deleted scene from the latest episode here!
WATCH IT HERE! EARLY ACCESS FOR WARLORD TIER!
AVAILABLE 05/31 @ 3PM MST FOR HERO TIER.
MORE of this couple here: Turn Off Your Phone.
2025-05-29 22:25:05 +0000 UTC View Post
ik yall hated seeing Arron cry in the latest episode, but dw! he's fine lol 🥹❤️
thank you for helping me choose some stuff for him!
i wasn't sure if Iza could lift him but i guess she can.
this is off topic, but i wonder what Mickey would think about this? i mean...spoiler but he'll never get to know. but i wonder what he'd think regardless. i think even if he saw it with his own eyes, he wouldn't believe it. but he'd probably find a new thing to obsess over.
before i started DoRo, i used to have a series called For the Love of the King.
hey! i'm not sure if any of this will be of any use to anyone, but i figured it could serve as a souvenir for the semi-finale if nothing else!
i'm not a CC maker so bear w me with all the technical stuff lol.
deco-only
in clutter/decoration
one swatch
this was all Kala ate at the rink (she has a childish palate)
deco-only
in clutter/decoration
one swatch
Sato whore'd himself out for this 😔
deco-only
in clutter/decoration
8 swatches- including Sato's very sweet matcha, Akira's mild matcha, ube AND taro!
the contacts from the cashier girl that thought he looked like the Prince!
Facepaint category
HQ compatible
10 swatches
if you don't like the sclera, i recommend you replace them with these!!
thumbnail for the contacts:
just search "[KUREHA]" in the catalogue to find everything!
2025-05-20 00:49:15 +0000 UTC View Postjust to complement his outfit :) thats ittt!!! ❤️
1: down-turned w ribbon
2: el tigre
3: pointy and fuzzy
don't...read into it, i just wanted a new necklace for the little deer!
that's it, really...!
1: the big buckle
2: the big heart
3: tumblr heart choker
4: big bell
5: dog bone
deleted scene for this episode: [🌶️] Turn Off Your Phone! PART THREE🧡 Arrón x Iza
i made them for personal use so they're not perfect. i hope you can find use for them.
"kira" like glittering bc i love twinkling eyes.
FACEPAINT CATEGORY
ENABLED FOR INFANT+
HQ MOD COMPATIBLE
19 SWATCHES
since i didnt want to shrink the texture, the eyes are huge in game (bc i love big eyes) but you can shrink them with the base game slider. i like a "busy" sclera but if you dont like them, i recommend using MAGICBOT's sclera overlays.
PLEASE don't claim as your own, or reupload anywhere else.
NO PAYWALLED SIMS DUMPS. free only!! this is free CC!!
basically just be kind, not weird.
this might seem random, but i was thinking a lot today. like a lot lol.
to be able to do what i do for a living is a blessing. i can't internalize it lol.
i think when i first went full time, i was filled with tons of anxiety, a LOT of self-doubt, and a bit of guilt. the idea that anyone would be willing to support my little hobby was foreign to me...almost unbelievable LOL.
i think for a while i was focused on what i didnt have-- self-confidence, not believing in my own storytelling-- and i forgot to notice what i did, which is all of you guys. this little community we've built makes my heart swell. i see you in each new comment on my instagram, new sub, new edit from you on tik tok... seriously i can't express it enough.
i was speaking with a friend who's also a content creator, and we were talking about being in touch with your "why".
why post your videos instead of keeping them to yourself? why bother to let anyone see them? finding your "why" is extremely important when you want to make social media your job. and for a moment, i got back in touch with my "why" and it made me emotional all over again. this is why i'm typing this message to you lol.
the reason i'm here, the reason i post my stories instead of just make them in private, the reason i'm so anal about everything and hard on myself is for you.
i want to be your comfort zone. i want you to get off work after a LONG day, or maybe you're stressed about school, maybe you're going through a break-up or maybe you're just generally not having a good time, but you know my content will always comfort you.
everything down to the soundtrack and sound effects used, verbiage, angles, storylines --is for this purpose.
if you see yourself in any of my characters, i want you to know that you're safe there. its a judgement-free zone. my characters are flawed (i'm looking at you, Kala & Sato)- they don't always make the "right" decision every time. sometimes you can see them make the mistake a mile away... but trust that they will find their way, and find their safe spaces in time, just like you will.
i'm not perfect either. i've made plenty of mistakes and will make more in the future. to show up this vulnerably to tens of thousands of strangers on the internet is scary shit LOL. i've been hurt a lot. i've cried a lot lol. being misunderstood comes with the territory.
letting go of control has been the hardest part of my journey as a content creator honestly. allowing people to take my content as they will...it feels super raw, and it's clear i have some growing up to do lol.
some people dont get it. they're pixels after all LOL. but for me they represent something very real, and that's my connection to you. it's my way of communicating with you, nakedly. embarrassingly. imperfectly.
i hope even through all the silly drama in my series, you find comfort in what i do, that's all.
i hope you know that i really do see and understand you (and if not, i'm sincerely trying to LOL). thank you so much for supporting me in any way you do. thank you for showing up for me. i promise to keep showing up as well, and do my best to honor your faith in me.
i love you without condition!! 🌸❤️ if no one else got you, know that i do.
part of the Arron/Iza playlist, called Turn Off Your Phone.
2025-04-11 18:42:01 +0000 UTC View Post
hey! so i wanted to test if i could embed videos from yt directly to my patreon. if all is working well, you should be able to see it lol. for my sfw stuff, i would rather host it on yt so i can save space on vimeo.
my sfw stuff will be hosted there "unlisted", with extended cuts if there are any!
i was asked by my partner in crime and muse, RASCGAL to create this preview for her upcoming animation. as soon as i saw it i KNEW it was screaming Rome/Trina lol.
anyway it's just something cute to test out the unlisted embedding feature + make a cool preview for a colleague! 🖤 my heart fluttered a little when he laughed! ❤️
see you soon my love!!
2025-04-09 04:50:17 +0000 UTC View Post
something sweeeeet in a few days!
something spiiiiiicy in a few days after that...!
this next short is called "Do Not Disturb!" (as well as the "DND Extended Cut" for the NSFW portion) to go along with Arrón/Iza's phone themed playlist. this time, it may be Arrón who's outta reach. what is he hiding? why's he being so secretive??? idk but Iza's gonna find out.
also!! Andrea's beginning to show! she makes an appearance in this short.
technically, the "Turn Off Your Phone!" series takes place during the six weeks Sato was at Hope. when Arrón found out Dre was pregnant, she was seven weeks. because this short prob would've taken place on the weekend before the trip (since Arrón's hair is red by now), she could be anywhere from 13-14 weeks.
i think she started showing super early bc she's so tiny. idk, let's go with it LOL.
also i thought this random photo was funny LOOOOL like why is Jay mugging her??? (i mean we know? but it hasnt happened yet in this short)
you opened this in public didn't you? smh.
seoulsoul dropped a new pack and someone on twit tagged me in it! i just wanted to say how much i love when yall think of the cast LOL. as we move into the next chapter of their lives, i've been maturing their wardrobe a little, and this means i've been all up and THRU seoulsoul's catalogue lol.
while i was dressing Arron, Iza, Kala, and Jazmin for this next short i'm working on, i found myself conflicted on what to put them in...my mind is already so far in the future for them lol.
getting back into the swing of filming. i love you all as always, and thank you for being my safe space.
OH! also i took these lol. Lars + Pen haven't had much time on my radar lately, but roselipa dropped a pose pack and it had them written ALL over it. very pretty imo!
