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on november 8th, i was at a cafe, drinking cocoa and reading a book, just having a quiet, ordinary day. then suddenly, i got an email from instagram saying “action required,” asking me to verify my identity. i followed the instructions, and right after that, my account disappeared into thin air without a single warning…

i couldn’t understand what had happened.
i kept telling myself it was probably just a temporary glitch, and i took the train home in a daze. but as time passed, reality slowly sank in, and it became a nightmare.
no matter how much i searched or how many things i tried, there was truly nothing i could do.
it felt like my whole world had suddenly frozen.

later, when i checked my email, i found login notifications from a location that clearly wasn’t mine, and that’s when i realized my account had been accessed without permission.
i believe that was what triggered the suspension.

i created that account around five years ago, after admiring an artist and thinking, “i want to draw and share my art too !” that was the beginning of my creative journey. looking back, i’ve had pauses, struggles, growth so many things.

just when i finally felt like i could move forward again and genuinely enjoy drawing,
everything vanished in an instant. i was so shocked that i couldn’t do anything for five days.

i’ve never been good at speaking loudly or being the center of attention, so talking through stories meant a lot to me. doing q&as there was genuinely fun. losing that space so suddenly felt incredibly lonely. but at the same time, i realized how special it was to draw, post, and have people look at my art and respond to it. i only understood how precious that was once it was gone.

thank you, truly
i was able to keep drawing because of everyone’s support. i never could have come this far alone. the old me probably would’ve been crushed and tried to quit everything. but this time, i chose to stand back up. no matter what happens, i can’t stop creating. drawing has already become a part of my life, and letting external events like this shake me and stop my progress would be nothing short of foolish.

so much has happened in just one month that it’s reached a level of chaos where i almost have to laugh. maybe this is what “change” really feels like. when you change yourself or take action, the world shifts with you. and whether you see that shift as good or bad is entirely up to you. so i’ve decided to treat this as some strange kind of tailwind and keep moving forward. but please don’t misunderstand i’m not trying to downplay what i lost.

everything that account held meant a lot to me...

i don’t think i’ll be making a new account. so from now on, twitter and this place will probably be where i mainly post my egg. if you’d like, it would mean a lot if you followed me there !

and one last thing. after all this happened, i talked to my older brother, and he introduced me to a lawyer he knows. they’re currently looking into whether my account can be recovered.
if i get any updates, i’ll share them :>

alright, let’s do my best today too !!!

slice of life of egg - visual novel

he didn’t really have anyone around him to share his love for visual novels with, so egg turned out to be the perfect partner for that

after they started spending more time together, egg would often find herself being half-forced to play visual novels in ham’s room and not the all-ages kind, but… adult ones…🔞

for egg, who has a pretty normal sense of ethics, it was apparently quite a blinding experience :D

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i love all of my characters, but ham is especially easy to work with, so he’s one of my favorites and he’s a boy, too♡

a lot of people mistake him for a girl, and honestly, i get it. even when i draw him, i sometimes think, “ y-yeah, there’s no way people wouldn’t think that… :< ”

i first drew him about two years ago, so it’s better now, but still

i could give him a more masculine bone structure and make him look more clearly like he’s cross-dressing, but in the end, that’s not what want to do

i just want to draw boys who are cute like girls !!!

so… i guess that’s just how it is…🤦‍♀️

therapist works better than ever on halloween

halloween is a blessing for her, because no one pays any mind to the blood on her skin or clothes :>

( i have posted the line art in the SUPERMARKET too, so please take a look there as well ! )

slice of life of egg - delusion

egg has recently become obsessed with white noise *:>

when she puts on her earphones and plays it, all the external sounds are completely shut out, and she says it allows her to focus more deeply on what’s in front of her, free from being influenced by the world around her !

( i once heard that playing white noise helps babies fall asleep more easily. maybe it’s something similar… (?) )

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i have managed to stay serious and focused all the way from the 17th until today !
thank u, everyone ♡
im slowly overcoming my fear 😡❗️

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a bit of a serious thought… i once thought i had boldly declared something in my own words on instagram, but lately i’ve realized that i hadn’t truly formed my ideas yet...i’ve been thinking that i need to paint a clearer, more concrete image of my future, otherwise i’ll just keep repeating this same loop forever. (why am i always this serious…)
i’m growing tired of how i’ve turned myself into this elusive, quiet figure always cautious, always hiding out of fear of something. the fact that i’ve only made around thirty tweets this entire year honestly shocks me !! unbelievable !!!! but that’s not who i’m supposed to be !
when i told my mentor about it, she said, “maybe you’ll find some insight by doing the exact opposite of what you’ve been doing” so i’ve decided to try that little by little, i want to start sharing my thoughts, daily life, art, and words more openly online. (i already have countless drafts piling up, unreadable in number)
god, please grant me strength once more ! i need a new breeze in my life !!

...where is my summer ?

wake da fuck up, aiu !

You’ve got this! Don’t give up! Keep going, you’re doing great! Believe in yourself! Stay strong! Everything will be okay! You’re stronger than you think! Take it one step at a time! You’ve come so far! Don’t stop now! Trust the process! It’s okay to feel tired sometimes! You’re not alone! I’m proud of you! Take a deep breath! You’re doing fine! Even small steps count! You’re doing your best, and that’s enough! It’s okay to rest! You deserve it! You’re allowed to make mistakes! Keep your head up! You’ve already done so well! Let’s go! You can do it! Come on, don’t quit now! You’re on fire! Keep your chin up! You’re killing it! Hang in there! Don’t lose hope! You’ve got what it takes! Cheer up! Things will get better! Let’s take on the world today!

potato salad etc

-salad-

the daughter of a food industry magnate, salad lives in a vast mansion

her everyday life is entirely run by maids—she’s never given the authority to make her own decisions. for her, the mansion feels less like a home and more like a suffocating, monotonous prison

eventually, to kill her boredom, salad begins indulging in strange little games with her maid, potato. what started as harmless mischief escalated once she realized the thrill of having someone utterly obedient to her

as a result, salad didn’t just stop at a simple bellybutton fetish—she’s now developed a wide array of peculiar, even extreme tastes

(senior in college)

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-potato-

abandoned by her parents when she was too young to understand left from right, potato was left in a cardboard box under the cold sky, with nothing but a pacifier

by chance, salad, returning from shopping, stumbled upon her and, out of sheer curiosity, picked her up. “you look fun! starting today, you’ll be my caretaker!” she declared. That was the beginning of their strange relationship

potato pledged absolute loyalty, so much so that she worships salad as if she were a living goddess. every day she tends to salad’s needs—listening to her every whim, singing lullabies until she falls asleep, and even licking her bellybutton daily

(senior in college)

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what really matters is that the two of them come from completely different circumstances, yet they’re together. i think their relationship is bound to be interesting, which is why i decided to go with it. the dynamic between egg and ham is also pretty fun, but i will save that for later :>(by the way, egg and ham are sophomores in college, so technically they’re upperclassmen)

as i was writing this out, i started feeling like i had like to make it into a comic too… i have just got way too many things i want to draw !!!! :((

slice of life of egg - salad strikes !

since i really liked a character i once drew in my comic titled "college", i decided to create a new comic centered around her ( please see my other post for more about the character :> )

up until now, i usually didn’t post the comics i shared on social media here, but from now on i think i wll start posting them here as well. in other words, i wll be posting both the comics and, as before, the extra content too !

i have made comics before where a single canvas is divided into four panels, or short comics that finish in just two panels. but i have hardly ever tried the style where each panel is drawn on its own full canvas. still, i feel that this approach is the most suitable for expressing a story, so lately i have been giving it a try. ofc, it takes more time than usual, so I’m experimenting with ways to speed up the process...

once i get more used to this style, i had like to try not only one-shot stories, but also longer comics divided into parts (for example, part1 - part10). i already have several ideas for longer stories in my head, and im really looking forward to drawing them ! for now, i wll keep practicing so i can draw faster ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ

ham egg in summer vacation

egg had already received over 3,000 messages from ham saying, "let's go to the pool togetheeeeer" (ham is really persistent, and apparently doesn’t want to go alone) egg actually did want to go to the pool, but was too scared to show her scrawny body in public and be made fun of... however, ham smashed the windowpane of egg's house, broke into egg's room, and forcefully dragging her outside, and so (whether fortunately or unfortunately) egg ended up creating a beautiful summer memory going to the pool with a “friend”(?) (btw, the bikini was chosen by ham)

and summer vacation has only just begun :>>

・i myself am now starting my summer vacation and have had many interesting experiences over the past few weeks. i have a few that i think could be made into a comic, so i will try to make on those. (perhaps one will be titled "psyche") i hope you all have a wonderful summer !

therapist is planning something

she won't even tell me, the author, what she's planning (its scary)

trying to think positively, i believe she's designing a rehabilitation program to help egg stand on her own properly.. (yeah ideas about her overflow endlessly and won't stop!)

...let me try to verbalize my creative style a little

egg is just an ordinary girl you might find anywhere - completely unremarkable, the kind you'd normally see sold at supermarkets. but the characters around her are all incredibly distinctive personalities (i believe this was intentionally designed this way). i hope this contrast can make egg stand out more clearly. though honestly, while creating something, these thoughts tend to get pushed to the back of my mind and forgotten..

egg yearning for the stars

egg loves planetariums and goes often, but always goes alone (well, usually she does things by herself anyway). most visitors come with family, partners, or friends, so she can't help feeling a little envious. gazing at the starry sky, she walks home thinking how wonderful it would be to whisper about the stars with someone. then she trips over a small rock and falls :(

and right now im working on making something and such (egg-themed ofc) since im doing it all by myself, it's trial and error which is taking some time, but i hope i can explain more about it next month !

message from therapist

at first, i wanted to insert a long message like this, but since the therapist character is still quite undefined, i switched to more approachable dialogue. im thinking of using this type of message somewhere eventually :>

by the way, right when i finished drawing and was about to post it, i realized i had drawn the nipples way too obviously visible. i just knew i had get cursed out by hundreds of millions of ppl worldwide over the nipples, so i tried making a version where they weren’t as emphasized. but honestly, im still not that skilled at drawing breasts, so i couldn’t really fix it well... plus, while editing, i felt zero excitement! so i decided, screw it—even if people hate me, im posting it as-is.

i want someone to pat my head and praise me for my bold decision!! :< (...um sry, this is so dumb)

egg in good summer

the hot season is here again this year~ everyone please be careful not to catch heat stroke or summer colds! stay strong

right by my house, there's a beautiful sea, and i always take morning walks there. but lately, by around 8 AM, the sun feels like it's stabbing me with its rays, so i can only walk for a few minutes. i do like the gentle morning light—it feels nice—so it's not all bad, though :>

it feels weird to say this about myself, but lately i can really feel my drawing skills improving rapidly. (pls don't laugh if you see my work from 3 or 4 years ago...) i make sure to draw at least one thing every day, no matter what, but my current challenge is to make my characters' proportions a bit taller. the characters i draw tend to look quite young, and while i do like that cute style, i feel like it doesn't fully capture the realistic humanity of actual people (i started thinking about this especially after i began drawing therapist fufu)

so i might occasionally post something here for proportion testing, so pls check back when that happens :>>>>

2025. 05. 02 (gentle spring breeze / something eggy hamy therapistly)

it’s been a while. i have been doing very well lately. im drawing at the rate of one piece a day right now and im incredibly productive, even to myself... :0

to be honest, i think i still only understand about half of what my characters are about, so drawing as many of them as possible until i can become friends with them is a necessary step for me right now. i hope to draw about 200 pieces by the end of this year…?

then again, ive recently learned that i lose my creative mode when i keep looking at social media and the internet, but i still have the desire to post a lot of egg's (my) slice of life, so i may be posting more and more from now on. if i stop posting, you can assume im crying alone because ive lost my confidence lmao

but i love myself when im making something, so i probably won't lose that now !

i had been drawing with the canvas size set at 2500 x 2500, but when i tried it at 4000 x 4000, it unexpectedly fit my current art style, so i will continue to work in this form from now on. (by the way, the first one is 2500 x 2500 and the second one is 4000 x 4000. i like it because i can depict even the smallest details)

on a personal note, our family dog named "ribbon" passed away this month. she was born around the same time i was born, so we were very close. but when she died, it was strange and not very sad. maybe it's because i still don't understand the concept of death properly. so although i cannot see her, i have the illusion that she still exists in this world.

i sat her next to egg on the first piece. (she sometimes left her tongue out like this, lol) i don't know when it will be, but im thinking of having her in my egg comic. and she will probably live forever until i die :>

damn !!!!! it's another fucking long sentence ! i almost never have anyone with whom i can share my thoughts, so i always end up writing long posts here.......ummmmsorrry ;;

2025. 03. 08

here are a few of the many drawings i have done

i drew a lot during the hibernation period, but i lost most of the art i drew due to a bug in the cloud settings (seriously, i was in such despair that i wanted to quit drawing for three days...)

also, ive created another account. maybe i'll post a video related or some kind of drawings or photo....?

@aiueo1080p

im back

hello, sorry for disappearing for 3 months.

im also sorry for worrying you. and im sorry i didn't reply to those who messaged me.

i have been thinking since the middle of last year that i should distance myself a bit from the internet and commit to life in the real world.

the reason for this is that im finding it increasingly painful to be on the Internet.

it seemed strange that something i had come to do that i wanted to do should feel so painful, but i couldn't stop thinking about it.

but i also resisted leaving. so once i needed time to distance myself and look at myself, but i pushed it away and was active.

then late last year my head literally exploded. the pain had reached its limit.

i thought i had to say something to everyone, but i was so mentally ill that i couldn't even do that.

again, im sorry.

for the past 3 months i have been thinking and trying to understand myself.

there i realized once again that i have a weaker mentality than most people.

i learned that you cannot change your personality no matter how hard you try.

the only thing i can change is my attitude and behavior, so i thought about what kind of person i want to be.

as a result of my thinking, i began to think that i wanted to post art/comic again.

that is why im writing this text now.

i didn't mention it, but im a psychology major in college. during this period of inactivity, i met someone i can call my mentor at the university, and im learning a lot of things.

i still don't know myself at all, but at least i have gained the strength to stand up. that is why i came back.

to be honest, i thought that im not the kind of person that people can be concerned about, so i thought that there is no need to write such an unimportant text, but i thought that at least i should say a few words to those who love me, so i wrote it.

well, actually the serious period has passed.

now i just want to have fun. im just in the mood right now to post more and more of my comics and entertain everyone. im going to take care of that

aahh um thanks again.

im a weak person, but im going to admit it and have fun being silly...

2024. 11. 16 (autumn book forest)

egg likes autumn best among the seasons. she has been reading books on psychology, psychoanalysis, and life hacks, but it seems to take her a long time to understand them because the written texts are all stiff and difficult to read...but she tries very hard to understand herself. so she does her best to read, even if it is difficult !

p.s. i also like to read books, and recently i read a book called “who moved my cheese?" it was a famous book, but i only knew the name. it became one of my favorite books because it contained words that are very necessary for me right now :D

2024. 10. 31 (halloween cosplay)

happy halloween ! last year ham/egg dressed up as a pumpkin and a maid, this year they are dressed as a mummy and a little devil :) i heard that people dress up on halloween to protect themselves from bad spirits, but ive never dressed up before, so maybe there are a lot of demons, witches and maybe even ghosts around me...

Oct. 3. 2024 (sunny summer vacation)

egg enjoyed her summer vacation more than anyone else, wearing a white bikini she wouldn't normally wear, with the sun shining and the endlessly beautiful blue seaside!!!!!
...........unfortunately, this is just a fantasy of egg's. in reality, she spent her summer vacation in an air-conditioned room, reading psychology books and taking walks around the neighbourhood. she hopes that next year she will make friends and spend her summer vacation as per this fantasy! (and i hope so :3)

Sep. 24. 2024 (egg egg egg sketch)

hi its been a while! i was doing a lot of thinking and ideas and my birthday came so fast....

to be honest, i don't have a mental illness, but im not a very strong mental person, so i sometimes spend a lot of time worrying about even unimportant things uwahh (which makes me unable to do anything!!!)

now that im one age older, i would like to take some action from here to make my mentality a little stronger!

Skecth Request in August (part3)

thanks to everyone who commented ♡♡♡

its very interesting!!! you can see from the sketches that my brain is running full blast (๑꒪ㅁ꒪๑)

have a good weekend :3

Aug. 30. 2024 (ham's secret hobby...)

i haven't drew ham in a while !! ( because ive been drawing a lot of egg lately🥚🥚🥚 )

i thought about how to design the character in his boy state before dressing up as a girl, but I thought it would be more interesting to have a personality that is the complete opposite of when he is dressed as a girl, so I decided to make him shy on the outside♡

i honestly want to intertwine egg and ham in many ways...my imagination is growing... (´>///<｀)

Skecth Request in August (part2)

thanks to everyone who commented♡♡

( might want to post some of them on twitter...! )

Aug. 20. 2024 (egg likes cartoons!)

its been so hot lately, i don't know if i should draw egg in a bikinis.........

Skecth Request in August (part1)

thanks to everyone who commented !! (n╹ω╹)η ♥ n(╹ω╹n)

SR August 🌻

im also looking for requests for simple sketches, which will also serve as rehabilitation. comment on what you would like me to draw in the comments section of this post. (comments are due on or about the 25th) it can be anything, so feel free to comment. i will post in several parts.

※another reason was that it was hard for me to respond to all the requests in the monthly suggestions. (it will also return this month)

egg in rabbit farm!

if someone hold two rabbits (fuckin fat) in their arms, maybe you will see something else...

Jul. 24. 2024 (poor poor egg)

...and im sorry, i couldn't resist drawing it

March & April poll winner(#1) : megumin ♡ konosuba!

Hi Hi, i haven't drawn properly for about two months because i was afraid and anxious about posting on social media, but i decided to face my fears head on! i will resume posting and try to add a few more... for now, i hope you like this megumin in negligee~