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Oblivion Remaster - The ugly good and the pretty bad

Had to reupload because of the frequency bleed issue I got with the POE 2 viddy. I cut the frequency in the video, and have smashed the light responsible for it with a hammer. Thank you for your patience.

Words words words

Okay, get ready for words. Lots of words.

I'm always wondering what the people on Patreon are thinking. You people are my lifeline when Youtube can't provide so I have been striving to provide more value to you.

This post here is an open forum. I want to hear, not only your unfiltered thoughts on the direction of the channel, but I am also curious about what you would like to see as well.

In other words, whaddya want outta me?

Lately I've been doing some experiments, and they turned out the way I thought they would. A small group of people loving it, while the vast majority leave within the first few minutes dooming the whole expedition to starvation in the woods.

As you know, for a very long time, I focused down on video games because it seemed sustainable, and for a while, it was, but over time, it has changed.

The channel has stagnated, growth is slow, the economy has rolled over, exposing its belly, and I am balancing on a thin rope looking down at a long drop to the concrete.

Videos that should be hits are flops. The more effort I put in, the less of a return I get. I've moved on, so to speak, mentally.

I have videos I want to do, but it isn't inspiring me the same way the spur of the moment rants are because games are a money chaser, a product and those seeming rants are the things I'm actually passionate about.

Once you've been away from something long enough, it's difficult going back because that time away has given you perspective. Perhaps the reason you aren't successful or as successful as you THINK you deserve to be, is due to the fact that you aren't as passionate about your projects as you used to be.

Especially if you've grown tired. Lately I've been making the videos that I want to make for a month or so, and it feels great. It's cathartic to be able to say all the things you've wanted to say for years but were afraid to because it could easily lead to your economic doom.

Catharsis is nice now and then, but you gotta eat.

I think I'm afflicted. Maybe with jealousy, maybe with self doubt, or a mixture of all that and everything in between.

I've watched as my channel sat, for years, in the same, immobile position no matter what I do.

I've agonized over the bi-polar nature of my channel, seeing line go up one day, and down another.

I've dealt with the ensuing depression, and watched as my family fails to deal with my unhealthy mood swings.

I've given genuine but slightly jealous congratulations as friends rise like a puberty stricken dick while I sit wondering when it'll be my turn. I'm reminded of a quote from Gore Vidal.

"Whenever a friend succeeds, I die a little." In other words, why not me! I'm pretty right? I'm smart right? Aren't I? You ask your friends as they shift uncomfortably from one foot to another.

"Yeah... Of course, right guys?" Your friends nod.

But they aren't telling you the truth because they love you and want what's best for you and telling you the truth, in their estimation, is not what's best for your mental health.

Languishing in mediocrity is no better. Emotionally, you're robbing Paul to pay Peter.

Many of us wish for more and see the object of our desire right there just inches from the tips of our fingers.

A lot of us get to watch as our dream gets further and further away from us. Disappearing into the vanishing point beyond the horizon.

When a friend asks for your opinion on something they drew, or wrote, or whatever, what this really is is a cry for help. Help me! I'm lost, and I have no idea what to do about it.

What I've learned is that even though this is their deepest desire, what they really want is confirmation that the world is unfair, that they're a misunderstood genius and unfortunately, born in the wrong period in time.

There's no chance the world will get more fair so, it's okay to give up.

I was dating a writer. She tried for years to get a story off the ground, but couldn't get a publisher. She was thinking about self publishing so she sent me her manuscript to get my opinion on it.

Now by this point, I had experienced what it is like to give someone you care about your honest opinion on something. It never turns out well because they don't see the intentions behind your words, they only hear the criticisms.

And they hate you for it.

I dodged a bullet, to be honest, but it serves as a reminder to me that even though it hurts, I should always be open to criticism when the criticism is in good faith, but even bad faith has a nugget of wisdom to glean.

I shouldn't take offense to criticism because it comes from a place of wanting me to be successful. A helping hand to lift you up when you get to the top of the ladder instead of kicking it down before you can get to the top.

So, I pose the question to you. What would you like to see me do? What would you like to see me do better? And most of all, do you think I'm pretty?

Alright everyone. Hang in there, stay safe and remember... It's polite to keep your opinions to yourself so, make sure to be rude.

They got me (I'm doomed, help me)

Hope you like the new video. I figured out the high pitch issue in the last video, BTW. It was frequency bleed with two cords sitting on top of one another. So I "shouldn't" have this issue again, but you know me. I'm just wacky guy.

POE 2 video issues

Gonna be re-uploding the POE 2 vid here once it's done rerendering. There were some issues with high frequency whines that were driving younger people nuts, so I am taking down the old versions and re-uploading. Sorry for the inconvenience but unfortunately, I am too old to hear those issues. Thank you, however, to everyone who pointed them out. It may have driven me to sadness, but it helped in the end.

Path of Exile 2 - Prepare to disappoint edition

Another week. Another video. Hope ya like it.

Nintendo stole my kidneys (PATREON EXCLUSIVE)

Experimenting with a different style of video, and a different type of video as well. Gonna be posting these here while I figure out how to tighten up the formula. Hope you like it.

SUPER BUNNYHOP

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pyPW4g6H66w&t=593s

Piracy Is Your Fault

Another week, another video. This time it's all about how businesses create their own problems, and then cry about it.

Offending You Is The Point

New video. Hope you like it.

A Sacred and Terrible Memory (Patreon Exclusive)

We'll be doing more of these throughout the month. I hope they bring joy to the pleasure centers of your brains.

Youtube's future looks grim

A little diddy that I had to make because of the recent changes to youtube. I may be doing more of these every month like when I used to do the Rant-edgies

How To Rimworld

Update on Rimworld

I am truly sorry this is taking so long. I have had a rough year so far. My wifes car keeps dying on us, my roof nearly caved in, all in all, I took out about 15k in loans. Anyway, enough about that, the Rimworld video is almost ready. I am on the final chapter right now, trying to explain how you get off planet in Rimworld, and you know how difficult that shit is, so it should be ready for Patreon on Friday, and it'll go live on youtube Monday.

Again, sorry this is taking so long. I kind of got carried away with the editing.

Paulie

Update on next video

Wanted to give everyone an update on where I am with the next video since it has taken longer than average to get it out.

This week I got absolutely taken out by influenza a and it hit me like a freight train. I have a bunch recorded and waiting to be edited, but so much more to do.

As you know, Rimworld is a massive game, even just vanilla and I wanted to cover it thoroughly and cover it from start to finish. As that is the case, I had to put about 150 hours into just playing the game to get to the point where the colony could launch and see the end credits.

Since it has already taken so long to get this out, I am going to release two to three videos. Early game, mid game, and end game. Since those are fairly distinct phases. I will release them back to back as to avoid putting any of it off. So it might end up being one episode every two weeks.

I hope this explains why it is taking so long. Trust me, I'm not just sitting on ass. Just wanted to explain in case anyone was wondering.

Paulie

How To Kenshi - The Ultimate Guide

Hi. Hope you like it, folks.

Kenshi video update

Still working on the Kenshi video, but it has been taking a while to make progress as it is a complicated game, and I needed to make sure I covered everything there was to cover. It should take another week of editing before I can upload it to Patreon. So bear with me.

Thanks again for the support, and I'll talk to you soon.

Love ya,

Paulie

Abelard's Infinite Attack Loophole - (Unfair Ready) Warrior/Arch-militant build

New build is up. Let me know what you all think of this one. Took a while, but the extra time invested paid off in having a better build.

Hope ya'll like it.

New Build video is up - Void Shadows DLC for Rogue Trader

The new video is up, just in time for the release of Void Shadows, and won't go live until tomorrow most likely, but you can watch it now as a perk of being a member. I wasn't able to add extras this time around because this one was on a real tight schedule, and down to the wire. I hope you like it. If things go well, I will make a few more videos for builds in RT this week, and next week I'll likely move on to How To Kenshi.

Warhammer 40k Rogue Trader

There's quite a lot in this video that won't be on the youtube version because it would get me demonetized, so make sure you watch it here, and if you're so inclined watch it on youtube later.

Love ya!

Paulie

Quick update - Warhamme 40k and Kenshi

I am crunching away on the Warhammer video to try and get it out on Monday, but I don't know if I am going to be able to get it all done over the weekend, so it may be out on Tuesday, so sorry if it ends up being a little late, but I'm trying my best to not have it be late.

After that video, we have a How To Kenshi video to look forward to, and a Rogue Trader DLC video. Then I'll post that poll for ya'll to vote on what happens next. Let me know if you have any requests you'd like to see go into the poll, and I'll be sure to put it on the list.

Happy long weekend everyone!

Paulie

Culture thrives as society dies | Fallout London and the originality deathloop

New video is up with extras for the Patrons, ad free, all that jazz. Hope you like it. Next will be a video on Rogue Trader, then I am going to post a poll to see what you lovely folks would like to see next. Happy back to school for those of you in school.

Paulie

BROKEN GAMES ARE BETTER | OBLIVION

Here's the newest video, free of sponsors, and uncut. Thanks for the support. More coming soon.

Oblivion video coming up next

I am going to be doing a max difficulty challenge video next. It's going to be called something like: Oblivion Max Difficulty, but I cheese everything. Let me know in the comments what you'd like to see next and I'll post a poll for a future video. Thanks!

Paulie

Elden Ring FIst Only Challenge but I can't quit

Here's the new video, uncensored and uncut, exclusive for Patrons. I'll be doing this from now on, and uploading a shorter, more sanitized version to youtube, so if you want to see this video the way I meant it to be watched, this is where you want to watch it.

My build for the next video

This is the build I am using for the next video. It's the Fist Fightin' Pope Francis build. It's a fist build with insane flame damage, insane poise break, and bleed on top of that. The theory craft part of this went really well, so give it a try and let me know what you think. Gonna start recording the footage now.

Things you'd like to see

This is a really important survey so if you have a moment, please vote on this. I'm looking to add some content to the channel. Stuff that I can put out here and there. Stuff like Movie reviews, Television, different genre's of games. Thanks everyone. I look forward to seeing everyone's response.

Update

I'm working on a new format of video this week. I'm hoping to have it out by Monday, but it may be next week. I hope you all like it. Next video I will put up a poll so start messaging me any requests you'd like to have added to the poll.

The New Video Is Up For Early Access

It will go live tomorrow morning. It's available now for all of you. I hope you like it. Let me know, in the comments, what you'd like to see next.

New video is coming soon

I got another video coming up, perhaps tomorrow at the earliest. A prelude to my thoughts on Elden Ring's DLC. I hope ya'll like it. After the hype for the DLC calms down, I'll be working on part 2 of the Baldur's Gate 3 vid.

Shadow of the Erd Tree Incoming

Come check it out and keep me company.

You need Neverwinter Nights

The new video is up and processing. It'll go live tomorrow morning but it's available to you now.